Brain Dump Challenge
This will be super healing and cathartic for all of you <3
Challenge: Brain dump everything you’re struggling with. Either here, or in a separate post (and let us know when you post it). Let it all out. Write it in prose, or poetry, or just random words strung together. It doesn’t have to be pretty, it doesn’t have to have correct punctuation or grammar or capitalization. It just needs to be your soul on paper… Your emotions and thoughts, your pain and struggles and yearning and loss, all written out. It loses its power once it’s shared. We’re family here; you’re safe here. Share it all, and feel safe in the knowledge that we will cradle your pain in our hearts and cry with you, and we will gather around you and show you love that surpasses any language or tongue. <3
I will add a taglist, but this challenge is open to absolutely everyone, new or old. <3 Feel free to tag people if you’d like <3
@ShadowFaerie @unassumingEyes @Sunisshiningandsoareyou @sadcat13 @Amanda84 @goldenduckling @mytwistedsoul @Tinywhisper11 @LovemyMoonflowers @GreenLime3141 @7Bear7 @Phoenixthepoised @Torean @GentleHealingInitiative @Wazowski91 @cyanessence @YourCaringConfidant @CaringEzra @NobleSeeker @fossilfellow @BastionKnight @trueconfidant123
Inspired by the beautiful, emotional, relatable poetry by @4579Xx, and also my mom <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 ❤️❤️❤️
@jesusredeemedme2425 I am struggling lately with just pure exhaustion and as a carer it's hard to get time for myself 💕
What have you been dealing with? Tell us in detail… Get it all out <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 I just wouldn't like my parents to ever think I begrudged doing it for them because that's not the case, I love them and they are my world, sometimes I just don't get some time to decompress 💕
@Amanda84 I can't heart your messages so here you go 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖
Same… Sometimes you just need someone to take over for awhile so you can breathe. Is there anyone who can?
@jesusredeemedme2425 no one helps at all 🥺
@Amanda84 hugs you tightly 💖
I wish I could come over there and give you a respite for awhile <3
@Amanda84 awww being a carer must be incredibly exhausting physically and mentally🙁 I just know your dad loves you and is so very proud of you and he wouldn't like to know how hard this as been on you. I'm sure he wants you to be happy, and that means taking care of yourself too 💖 it's ok to take a break even if it's just a night away to relax and spoil yourself 💖 you deserve only good things 💖 I love you 💗
@Tinywhisper11 thank you, yes, I would never want to do anything else but care for him, he is my world, so I would never want him to know, that's the hardest part, keeping everything in 💕
@Amanda84 that's why we are here 💖 you don't have to keep it all in 💖 I got you 💖
@Tinywhisper11 knowing you do is the greatest gift 💜💕
@Amanda84 💖💖💖
Tell us. He’ll never see it. We’re here for you <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 💜
@jesusredeemedme2425 ah, I will set up my HQ here. Can´t say no to make myself a good pity party. I feel like my life just sucks. The world is using me as it´s punching bag, sometimes just kicking me for the sake of it as it passes me by. My boyfriend lives too far, both of our lives are a mess. We are trying. And seems like we will be able to meet for the first time this summer. My parent´s don´ t know yet and i don´t know how to tell them. They will rip me to shreds as they don´t want me going there and keep treating me like a child.
I´m stuck at home, and despite my family loves me, i´m deeply unhappy. Disfunctional. Claustrophobic from my own room how I feel it closing in on me with the reality of look how your friends are getting engaged and married and your greatest achievement this week is taking 3 days to vacuum most of your room after more then 2 months. Truly groundbreaking.
I watch my aunt slowly deteriorate over refusing to go to a doctor to get proper medical care for her problems. I see all the delusions and they make me want to scream. I see all the problems around me and hate how I can´t fix it. And most of it all, I hate myself. How incapable i am. How i am not good enough. And how there is nothing good waiting for me, then feel like i´m ungrateful and selfish because i have so much in life that many people would trade situations with me in a heartbeat to only have to whine about the stuff i do instead of having actual problems they face every day.
I wish I could fix it all and someone would fix me. The irony is, I can only fix myself. And it´s a slow and tedious process. I just want to hand this broken brain into a service and ask for a repair and pick it up in a week. Don´t even get me started on health. But maybe I am just a whiny spoiled brat. And I hope one day, I will find it in me to overcome it and be someone i can actually be proud of becoming
You’ve never met your boyfriend?
Is that a thing??? Can we take our broken brains to the shop? Where’s the nearest one??? I’m down lol
@sadcat13 life can really suck 🙁 I'm sorry sweetie 🙁 but you know what I'm proud of you 💗 no matter how hard and difficult your life is you still manage to make others smile and feel special💖 I'm really sorry about your aunty, in that situation there's really not alot you can do 🙁 but you can shower her with love and laughter while you still have time 💖 being treated like a child is not nice but try not to let it bring you down, life is not a race so try not to compare to other people, your happiness is all that matters. And I really hope things will start looking better for you soon 💖 gives you a giant tiny hug 💗 I love you 💗
@Tinywhisper11 💜
@Tinywhisper11 thank you. I am trying but it can get so frustrating sometimes. I just hate being inefficient. I am the kind of person who is having a full blown ugly crying session and then suddenly stops like well that´s the crying time for today, I got better things to do now. So it genuinely frustrates me so hard when things don´t go how I want them to 😅
@sadcat13 Have you tried going to the gym? No, seriously this is kind of a good fix. The gym acts as a partial buffer for depression imo kind of like a line of defense.
@jesusredeemedme2425 ok here I go, my brain is being mean and nasty and I was happier before I started remembering things that were blocked out 🙁 flashbacks and memories are scary I hattttteeeeee ittttt. I'm trying so hard right now to be ok but it's sooooooo hardd😭😭😭😭😭😭 I love summer and the hot weather but I have to wear this huge brace to be able to sit up and it gets so hot I just want to rip my skin off. In 5 weeks it's my sons birthday he's would be 14 and I always write him a poem and attach it to a balloon and let it float up to heaven but I haven't even started his poem yet🙁 my brain is so messed up right now I don't even know how to start his poem🙁 ok I think that's it... Vent ended
@Tinywhisper11 oh wait one more thing.... Aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
And I absolutely agree with the postscript ;)
Maybe this year, you could draw a picture of him in heaven, walking hand in hand with Jesus, surrounded by beauty and animals and light and life <3
Just draw. Don’t write. Your soul can express itself without words <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 🤔 oh I could do that, maybe he would like a drawing this year🙂 I've made him a few things over the years they are all in his treasure chest though 💖
I’m sure it would be very cathartic for you <3
@Tinywhisper11
A treasure chest is a lovely idea, you need to give yourself rest and space and the poem will come from the heart because the love you have for Joshua is immeasurable 💜💕
@Amanda84 poems for Joshua normally come to me easily, but right now it's not happening🙁 it's kinda upsetting me
@Tinywhisper11 I totally understand why it's upsetting, because he is your world and you want to show that, but truly any words you write will be fitting because you are his mother and truly no one could love him more. You are so young and you should never had have to go through what you did, hugs and love a million times a day if you need them 💕
@Amanda84 I always need hugs 💖💖💖 thanks sweetie 💖 I love you 💗
@Tinywhisper11 I love you too 😘
Your brain is resetting itself, after all that trauma. He went through the trauma. He’d understand… And he’d be proud and happy that your brain feels safe enough now to finally start to process and heal :’)
@jesusredeemedme2425 that's a lovely idea 💕
I did mine separately on General Support.
I responded <3
Okay. Here I go, I wanted to write it on a separate post, but didn’t find how to do it (still learning about this app.
I’ve been feeling stuck lately. I don’t know what to do with live, it’s definitely a mess. I don’t have a routine, nor a support system. I have my mental health provider and my therapist, but I don’t feel them like a real support because honeslty they are getting paid to listen to me and try to help me. I’m grateful to have them, don’t get me wrong, but I wish I had someone there for me, that genuinely cares for me and listens to me, maybe give some advice. Everything I do just feels plain, my mood is bad most of the time, I struggle with my English is not my native language, I wish I had the will to improve it, but it’s just like any other thing. Like for example, exercise I just don’t feel like doing it, my energy is so low. Or going to work, it gives me this nervousness and fear, like when you hate something but still have to do it, like forcing yourself, and it feels so bad. I also have cats and one of them has this issue that he pees everywhere but in his litter box, and having to clean his mess it’s also something I hate, we come again to the the energy, I don’t have energy for almost nothing, and that makes me feel useless. Like I’m a failure cause I find it difficult to do anything, and I don’t know if someday things will change. I’m so tired of living like this, if you could call this ‘living’. I don’t know where to start or how to change.
I also struggle with concentration and I think that that’s why I forget things, because I wasn’t concentrated enough or I got distracted by something else.
I struggle with socializing, and I think: Who would want to be my friend? I’m almost always in a bad mood, not being able to see the positive side of life. I isolate because I don’t think that nobody would want to hear about my struggles, and I don’t really know of what else to talk about. I guess that must be that I don’t have good social skills. Cause I mean, I don’t have a life. I don’t even know what songs are popular now, I don’t watch the news, I don’t watch sports, I just like my old sit-coms, and they’re in Spanish, so they don’t help me with my English. I also play games on my phone, and go to work (which in two weeks from now I’m not gonna have) I’m kinda excited about it, but also sad because that’ll mean I’m not gonna have an income and that is frustrating, fortunately I have my brother’s support, but I don’t like to depend on others. Hopefully I find a better job soon.
Any advice is welcome. Maybe there’s more to add, but I can’t think of it rn. I really liked doing this. Thank you for reading
@determinedTalker2854 I'm glad venting helped💖 depression is a terrible thing 🙁 I'm sorry your struggling so badly with it🙁 hopefully being here at cups will help you with all these struggles and more💖 gives you a giant tiny hug 💗 all here right here for you 💗
@Tinywhisper11 💜💕
Missing my carefree life 10 years ago
Change: marriage, child, career move to stay at home mom, grief of losing a parent, financial stress, strained family relationships.
@mcs19 🙁 that's alot of changes, but there's a lot of good ones mixed in there to🙂 a child a marriage 💖 gives you a giant tiny hug 💗
@Tinywhisper11 💕
Thank you, I agree. Good reminder.
@mcs19 💖💖💖
@mcs19 💜🥰
@jesusredeemedme2425
I struggling letting people in and committing to relationships. I cant trust anyone and i get into relationship with the mindset that people will hurt me or leave this leads to me not being emotionally available and not letting people see all parts of me
@Unaretha aww sweetie I'm sorry🙁 I hope you can take some time alone and learn to love yourself, then hopefully you will be able to let others in💖💖 hugs you tightly 💖
