Composition notebook

—TRIGGER ALERT—

Hello, I'm Nick.

I'm autistic, and I'm easily triggered.

"Today I have been feeling down. I'm 35 now, and when I was a kid, I had a composition notebook, you know, those black and white patterned covers. Well, I had one my mother gave me for homework... Of course I never used it for homework instead I wrote stuff, and draw things like funny faces. I wrote down stuff I was going through that I didn't quite understand or could control, like that I was autistic but I didn't have a name for that back then, never had friends, my sister was annoying, and then there was stuff from my trauma that I was experiencing, like my step mom emotionally abusing me, the traumatizing two week rotation from one parent to another, than at my mom's house I felt like I couldn't bond with her due to what was happening at my dad's. Today I am aware I'm autistic, and I get flashbacks that are unsettling.

I experience intense flashbacks of my mom leaving to go to work when I watch my wife leave for work today and I can't watch certain movie scenes, but I also know I'm safe now.

Recently me and my wife got a Composition notebook and we are making a safe memory together.