Confused about my dad

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Me and my dads relationship is still growing at an odd speed. It has been a 30 yr gap since he has honestly been in my life consistently. The only reason I have kept him in my world is my daughter his only grand-daughter/grand-child. It took the pandemic for him to realize his presents is still needed even if you live miles away, your actions still hold power, it does not matter if I am a grown women. I have to clue him in with my life. What really hurt is him as my father did not acknowledge me on Mothers day something I rarely get upset about yet this year it hurt. I have been expressing my life flows just to keep a steady job and upgrade in my field of theraputics. So for him to speak to me the whole week leading up to that sunday and not say a word 🙄🙄🙄🙄. I do not think of him as a father figure since I did not get that growing up. He still is distant, even with his health he says he does not need me checking on him… ouuu he is too stubborn for his own self. He is soo used to be alone he misses the real joys in life even if he gets them thru txt messages. He does not call on a daily basis. When I do reach out her repkies on his own time. I foubd out with speaking to my mum about him he is not intentional in some of his actions. He did send his grand-daughter a bday card at the top of the month. We called him on his bday and send him a video singing happy birthday. Not sure what is going on yet, expressing this finally here helped. I expressed it to my sister she did not have many words. Since she her father is an angel. I know that I am loved by all the beautiful and mighty women in my life who I pour into as well. We celebrate one another 💞💞💞 I know for the future my partner has to love themselves enough to provide that type of love I truly seek. My dads love is a small amount and that is all he can give in this lifetime. I am planning to take a trip to see him so he can actually grasp what he has been missing all of these yrs honest love and grace from the child you have made

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