Dark Side of Hotness 🥀
I wish more people understood just how isolating & frustrating it can be, to be a very attractive young woman. Everyone thinks life is a fairytale for someone like me but in truth, life is terrifying because everyone only ever sees & wants to get to know their own idealised version of you in their head which makes dating exhausting while you’re also trying to weed out genuine good girl-friendships and honestly I have been struggling so badly with that.
From my previous posts, I mentioned cutting off friends & I had to do the same this weekend with the only close friend of mine that I had left after realising just how much she slyly sabotages me, brings up embarrassing *** to other people about me but she’ll ask it as a question as if she didn’t already know everything & then I realised that she will just talk *** about me behind my back (thanks to other people accidentally letting things slip) but she will never ever bring it up with me!
On top of that, my boyfriend has stopped complimenting me for MONTHS and I’ve noticed how irritated he gets with me for other men staring which is ridiculous & I do have a lot of thirsty men always in my comments but I only ever respond to the girls & the gays so idk why he chooses to punish me for an act I’m not even entertaining and then he won’t speak to me for days & he’ll dismiss everything for his autism which I can understand it explains his behaviour & mannerisms (he is a high-functional autistic man) but not for everything.
I’m even being stalking online by at least two men and my boyfriend hasn’t even reacted or responded to the concern I feel, never mind giving reassurance.
The jealousy from friends & relationships over me looking so damn good is insane and I genuinely hope people take this more seriously instead of rolling their eyes, believing my issues aren’t real enough to be worth giving a damn but whatever
I’m just so so sad & so so angry but mostly so incredibly heartbroken & it’s getting harder every day for me to confide & connect with other humans when I truly don’t see the point
@starrydaze
Im sorry that you are struggling and your feelings and reasons are as valid as anyone else's, don't ever think they are not. If other men find you attractive, that is not on you, your boyfriend should have your back and thank his lucky stars he has you in his life , as for jealousy, you will always have that, but you just be you and always be confident but never cross the line of conceited or arrogant! Wishing you all the best 💜🥰
I'm sorry for that. Yes, real people and real connections are rare
It's true I see you, unfortunately looks affect or behavior so instantly/instinctively whether it's attractive or not, you get put into that box. People only see face value and create their own fantasies of you instead of seeing who you are. I for one am glad you are sharing this thank you! Breath deep!
I feel you girl ❤️ not getting the attention from you bf you deserve and being attractive can be very lonely. People just don’t see the real you or don’t want to and project their picture. I always try to make friends with everybody but the male just don’t wanna be friends they often want only one thing and being around you bc your hot. It sucks. Let the snakes go and trust that the right people will find you. Your vibe attracts your tribe. Stay strong 🌻