Dealing With a Lot…

I’m trying to do less on 7Cups, due to my hand pain and my burnout, but I’m still here. I’ve been purposely ignoring most of my penpal chats and other notifications I get, while responding to others. It’s been helping my mental overload to be able to ignore some notifications, and be able to focus better, breathe easier.

I’m just worried that people might think I don’t like them, I’m purposely shutting them out, I’m going back on my word about taking a break… I’m doing my best. I’m doing less, while trying to keep myself sane during an incredibly dark and difficult time, emotionally and physically and mentally. Making encouragement posts helps calm and ground me… Responding to a handful of penpal chats makes me feel seen and understood and less isolated.

I feel like I’m saying this all wrong. But I know you guys know me well enough, love me enough, to sift through what I’m saying and glean the meaning from my prattling. What I’m trying to convey is… I’m just doing less, I’m not leaving. I’m not ignoring specific people because of ill will, just because it’s easier on me in multiple ways. Loving people is keeping me sane.

Idk If any of this makes sense… I feel like it’s muddled. I hope you guys understand… Please let me know if you do.