Don’t Know What To Say Anymore
I keep having this vague feeling that I need some sort of help in some way, but I have no idea what I’d even need help for or with.
I just don’t feel or care for much anymore. I don’t remember the last time I slept longer than just a few hours at a time or cleaned anything or showered or ate something that wasn’t ice cream, fast food, or a frozen meal from the microwave. But I weirdly…feel no real sense of urgency or concern. I still just want to stay in bed and watch whatever content just comes up on my phone all day. It’s now all I do outside of work.
I don’t really get why I’m like this now. I wasn’t like this even just a year ago, not at all. I still have just enough energy and will to get up and do my job, but don’t have any energy or drive to do absolutely anything else. I don’t even like my job, but for some reason, it is the only thing I feel obligated to do.
What did I do to cause this, and how do I fix it? It’s honestly ridiculous and pathetic at this point. And I keep trying to snap out of it, but it’s not working. How do I make myself care about the stuff I’m supposed to care about and do the things I’m supposed to do everyday?
