I am feeling terrible. Please help me.
My mom just compared me to a animal, said that i make everybody else hopeless. She said that i am a bad son. Also, she said that she will take my PC away. I only use PC to access 7 cups and to watch lectures on youtube. I am feeling I am worthless and a burden on others. i am crying from inside. I wish that I don't wake up next morning
Aww hey hey lovely being, @ApurvaSingh123, you'll probably not believe me~ an apparent stranger, who doesn't know anything about you~ if I say you're not-worthless so I won't say that. (Even though it's true ~ you're *not* worthless OR a burden on Earth)
Instead, what if we try to reframe our "definition" of what worth is, and "who" gets to decide it for us.
An "easier said than believed" thing again, but not even your mum gets to decide *your* worth for *you*~ only you got that power and you can always make your own definition of what makes *you* feel worthy, and what you can do, to feel it, to believe it. 💛
Ya know? Chances are, you're already doing everything you ever need to do, to be "worthy"~ it's the constant little unnecessary reminders from the world outside that we slowly internalize and believe, "their" truth, what they tell us and so often, that we continue treating it as a fact.
It's not their truth to share, you're the writer here, you get to write it for yourself and dare anyone make you believe it otherwise.
I understand the scary thoughts, about her taking away your PC, and with that losing connection here~ is there a way you'd convince her to allow it to you for certain times or something that could work as a middle ground for both of you?^^
I'm truly sorry you're being treated so horribly at home, making you feel like a burden, it's just sad when parents are less of parents and more of controllers. :') So valid to feel frustrated, annoyed, upset, heart broken~ you name it, any emotion you're feeling is valid.
But every thought you have isn't true always. You're here, trying to reach out for support and that's what brave people do~ despite the challenges and hopelessness setting in, you being here, trying your best is enough sign to hold on tighter and continue doing your best, in being kind to yourself. Xyz people will do N number of things to pull you down, but every effort you make to hold on and each of your step to climb back up will count. You matter, and you're a worthy existence, take your time to believe it. We got you here! Sending hugs. 💛
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou i slept for half a day on Thursday so i couldn't reply. sorry for that. but still i am not feeling very good. My parents are most evil people i have ever seen. I was peacefully eating my breakfast today but then suddenly my sister came and started to do that neck move of WWE in which you try to choke other person by wrapping your hand around neck. I was choked but somehow i managed to clear out throat by drinking water. I don't know if I said anything but my sister started telling my father that I used verbal abuse. My father left my sister untouched and used a shoe on my face to punish me. At that time I was still not finished with food. I feel that these people do not care about me. I am also feeling suicidal. And I don't know why but I started laughing while I was being beaten. i think I am mad. My hands are also shaking. Should I meet a real doctor? everything seems unbearable. If you are from India, I just want to ask whether PGI Government hospitals have Therapists for free for Minors and whether they will tell to my Parents about me?
Every child deserve to be loved
not every parent deserve to have a child
and honestly, this is your case
i am terribly sorry that your parent did this to you
as a former neglected & abused child myself i can only assure you that when you grow up you can distance yourself from them, please keep that in mind to make you strong!
@ApurvaSingh123 hey! I dont know if this will help but my story was awfully similar to yours only just an year ago. My parents fought all the time growing up and i basically raised myself. I can understand how it feels to have no one and the people that are supposed to love you are causing you to loose your mind. Long story short, I was depressed but pulled myself out of it with the help of a really special friend. Back then, it felt like my life was over and everything felt colourless . Just remember that it will pass! Everything does. And if you ever feel low just remember to reach out. And if you would like we could be friends!😊
@passionateApricot2199 Who was that friend?
@passionateApricot2199 I would love to call someone my friend because the last friend i made was around 6 years ago. and he stopped talking to me around two years ago.
@ApurvaSingh123 You are not a burden. This is 7cups. Here at 7cups, people come here for all sorts of reasons. So, I for one, am glad you found us. I hope, that 7cups can be of some help to you. We are here 24/7 365 days a year. I do not understand, why your mom, would take away your computer, just for being here at 7cups and for viewing lectures online. Maybe, have a talk with them, and let them know, just how important 7cups and viewing lectures online, is for you. Just a thought. I hope this helps. I want to also welcome you to 7cups and to the 7cups family. We❤️ you, very much.