I am in the darkest place I have ever been before in my life at 56 years of age
I lost my job 6 years ago, during Covid. Was never able to find comparable work and have done gig work for the last 2 years which helped but then I had car issues and had to stop for right now. I am worried to death about exhausting all my retirement savings in the next few years and can barely sleep as I cant think about anything else. I am on medication and have a psychiatrist, my medication is not that great, and I have tried several with no success really. I was a heavy cannabis user for the last few years as a I way to help me cope but stopped about 2 weeks ago and have no desire to do that right now. I have no hobbies, very few friends (most are long distance), and cant even watch tv or sleep with all this on my mind it overwhelms me. I am considering Ketamine treatments but need to wait a few more weeks to start consulting with doctors on that to make sure the THC passes through my system as I am sure they will screen me before accepting me as a patient.
I have never been so scared in life, it has me paralyzed. Both of my parents are on their last leg as are my wifes parents, and I feel all that coming at me. I am so overwhelmed, I feel like the walls are closing in on me and I am on a clock at this point.
@tryingtoheal2025
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You have so much going on right now and it's ok to feel scared, overwhelmed or like you are juggling too many plates and uts hard when we are face with our own mortality when yiu see your parents and your wives parents. You cannot deal with every issue at the same time. Its too much. COVID was such an awful time for many and so isolating and many people still suffer with many affects to this day, but don't talk about it or are dismissed. I'm sorry you lost your job. Ultimately all you can do is your best, take one day at a time, talk to your doctor and when you have some answers, being better informed will allow you to put some coping strategies in place. Take it I e day at a time and don't be jumping too far ahead, save that worry and energy for when you actually need it. Sending you my best wishes and I genuinely hope things improve for you 💜🥰