I don't want to cry, but I'm crying
The stress I have is too much. I'm taking a break today and I'm crying. I don't want to cry, but I'm crying.
Why do you have strees ? Mayne I can help
@Mahan06
Thank you, Mahan. I have a piece of junk car that has been repaired 7 times in the last 2 years for the same issue. Carmax told me to take the car to Fiat to repair. Fiat said 2K to fix it. I made another appt with carmax for this friday. I am calling an attorney tomorrow and then will call carmax tomorrow and give them an ultimatum; either fix the car for free according to what Fiat says is wrong with it, or buy it back for the amount I owe on the car. (The car is worth half of what I owe.)
I am due to start grad school this year. Registration is tomorrow morning.,
I'm moving to another state in the first week of May. I am driving there with my cat.
The move is 1K more than I thought it would be.
I am poor.
I don't know how I am going to pay for school.
I have to find a job as soon as I get to the next state.
I have to sign up for community mental health as soon as I get there.
If Carmax doesn't agree to my ultimatum, I have to take the car back to Fiat and pay for them to fix it. That will be 2K that I didn't count on.
I am alone and have no one to help me.
I'm doing all the right things. I'm thinking constructively. But when I am not doing what I need to be doing, I collapse in bed and don't want to get out of it.
My new therapist told me not to make staying in bed a habit. I agreed with her in the session, but the next day or so, I thought, no, I am going through a phenomenal amount of stress, and I will stay in bed if I want to.
I understand you It can be said that I am like you, except that I have parents who are always arguing and are getting divorced. Currently, I know many things to earn money, but my father forces me to work only for him and he does not pay me. After working with a broken phone for several years, I was able to buy an old but healthy phone last month I can't even pay for the internet sometimes Or I can't go out with my friends I use old clothes most of the time and I hardly pay school fees
By crying, you only make the situation more difficult for yourself than it already is You can find a part-time job in the city you want Don't cry, instead think about what you want I heard a sentence in a movie, I will tell you a piece of it Ansal's life changes with the change in mental behavior Or as Wolff Waldo Emerson says A person becomes what he thinks about during the day
How are you now?
How's it going?
@Mahan06
I'm sorry to hear about your father making you work for him and not paying you. That is hard...especially not being able to pay for a decent phone and internet and clothes. You deserve a lot of credit for hanging in there.
I wish it was so simple to turn off how I feel, but I have PTSD, clinical depression, and a chemical imbalance. And right now I feel lost and off balance.
I know I'm doing the right things handling the car situation, and the move. I am very proud of myself for how well I am handling the situations. But it is still scary, and indefinite. Even so, I think I am prepared for the worst.
I talked to lawyers today and they said they think I have a case. They are assigning my case to specific lawyers they work with and will get back to me this week.
I'm still proceeding with the car appointment this friday. Today I also called carmax and gave them my ultimatum and said that I am talking to lawyers. I'll come to a decision by mid next week on which way I want to go, and then I'll do it.
Thanks for asking how I am. You're a sweetheart. :)
No problem
Just text me if u like
I can tell you everything will be okay if u believe in yourself
@Mahan06
I really dislike texting, but thank you for the offer.
Sometimes my chemical balance gets in my way of thinking I believe in myself. Like today, I mostly felt that I can't make it. Very briefly did I feel happy. But I have to tell you that feeling happy at all is a major triumph for me.
Keep it up
Thanks for answering
@purpleTree4652 Hey. I totally get it. Crying is always a coping mechanism, but I'm with you here. I hate crying. My defense mechanism is actually to NOT cry. But if it's finally happening, then it's always good. I'm sorry that things are hard, I'm here to help if you'd like to vent.
@bixy
Hi, Bixy,
Thank you for the support. Excuse me for repeating what I wrote in the response to another tribe member above. I so appreciate your offer to listen to me. I want to hear everything you say to me in response because everyone's words are important.
Everything that is going on in my life is big.
I have a piece of junk car that has been repaired 7 times in the last 2 years for the same issue. Carmax told me to take the car to Fiat to repair. Fiat said 2K to fix it. I made another appt with carmax for this friday. I am calling an attorney tomorrow and then will call carmax tomorrow and give them an ultimatum; either fix the car for free according to what Fiat says is wrong with it, or buy it back for the amount I owe on the car. (The car is worth half of what I owe.)
I am due to start grad school this year. Registration is tomorrow morning.,
I'm moving to another state in the first week of May. I am driving there with my cat.
The move is 1K more than I thought it would be.
I am poor.
I don't know how I am going to pay for school.
I have to find a job as soon as I get to the next state.
I have to sign up for community mental health as soon as I get there.
If Carmax doesn't agree to my ultimatum, I have to take the car back to Fiat and pay for them to fix it. That will be 2K that I didn't count on.
I am alone and have no one to help me.
I'm doing all the right things. I'm thinking constructively. But when I am not doing what I need to be doing, I collapse in bed and don't want to get out of it.
My new therapist told me not to make staying in bed a habit. I agreed with her in the session, but the next day or so, I thought, no, I am going through a phenomenal amount of stress, and I will stay in bed if I want to.
I feel like once I get to the new apartment, I will be over the worst of this. I know life is never problem free, but this week I have a major confrontation with carmax. I'm not good at confrontations, but I know I am in the right and handling this right. I am so over carmax and I am not even going to get upset when I deal with them. I just want the confrontation to be over. Then I can get the car fixed and focus on packing before the big drive to the new apartment.
I think I'll be holding my breath the whole way, hoping my car doesn't break down.
Thanks for listening.
@bixy
Hi, Bix,
I just read your profile. I love your avatar. They are gorgeous dogs. I also read that you are in the teen group. Is that correct?
How are you doing?
@purpleTree4652 Hi, and thank you. I'm doing okay. I'm moving across the country at the end of this month, so it's such a big change.
@purpleTree4652 Don't be upset that you cry a lot, I wish I could cry more and let out some of the emotional pain. Unfortunately, from a young age I have learned not to cry but to suck it up.
@Nickmore
Thank you, Nick. I have cried so much since being diagnosed with PTSD, To say I've cried a river is putting it lightly. It actually hurts when I cry.
I hope for you that you find your way back to your feelings. But I hope the world doesn't give you much reason to cry.
@purpleTree4652 It's okay to cry! We all feel our emotions in different ways and you are so okay for seeing a good cry right now!
I hope you've stopped crying. I literally cry everyday. My father told me he cried every day of his life. The upside to being this sensitive is being able to cry for beautiful things too.
@NessBess22
Thanks. Yes, I'm ok right now. That isn't to say I won't be crying tomorrow. Life is hard for me.
Are you saying that you cry every day because of a mix of good and bad things?
Sometimes. I just mean that people who can feel a lot of things in a controlled way can live a rich life. I really haven't figured it out, but I believe that to be true.
@NessBess22
I see. That's an interesting viewpoint. Thanks for the response.