I feel like I am being used

Hi guys it's my 2nd thread and i wanna let this known to you all that ever since my high school has gotten over i feel like people are trying to cash in on my hardwork my success for their benefits despite offering nothing of significance to contribute to my efforts other than obviously their time and eyes..

i am preparing for an exam.. and i m getting very paranoid about something.. I think i could do 80% of my actual potential and still be at a reasonably good college.. but the environment around me on my phone as well as my social circle that i m no more part of,is in way forcing me to do even more than what i am okay with just because i can do it.

i feel i m being used in this regard.. i felt this thing all through in my final year at school and not gonna lie i purposefully performed a bit worse than what i could because i knew the list of people who want to benefit from my successes (WITHOUT any significant contribution that too unasked as i was literally one of the brightest student) and now when i m in my drop year preparation for college entrance exam.. i feel i will again be used by others.. i have taken the precautions from my side already but i m very sure i m being spied upon by certain people. i feel like i have been hunted out by certain people to be the person who fulfils the criteria of the person they wanna project to the world as their manufactured product which I am NOT. and it's impossible for me to be that way with the vast amount of ego i carry within myself. everytime i am working towards my goal i feel there are people chilling out there waiting at the finish line only to claim my success as theirs or for least point out their Contribution to it.

I don't even know who I am. Am i a human or just a machine or a project for people to achieve fame through my works. i m not being paranoid as it happened quite a few times.. a lot of people ask me stuff then do it as i say but later on deny my involvement or just forget me.. not that i care about it but i believe they should.

I don't wanna be a machine to anyone.

I am Me. and i m fine with being me. i won't let any idi ot claim my success as theirs. even if that means i have to stall my success for quite a few years.

but i don't have a big choice tho.. as i literally told one of my friends that i m gonna score a certain amount of marks.. if i score that much not more not less i believe i could keep my word as well as not sell my success to anyone who isn't worth it.. and obviously pay tribute to my teachers who do lots of hardwork for us students.