I got triggered by reading my own poem haha

Yesterday I found out I have been talking to this person based on a false assumption. I found out he doesn't care about me as much as I thought or the thing that felt so itchy, so uncomfortable, it's because he was secretly judging me.

So I'm trying to protect myself from further humiliation by not going to him, which is really hard.

I posted this poem about him the other day- and someone liked it a while ago.

I read that and got triggered haha, feel like visiting him. Feeling myself in an emotional storm.