I'm so hopeless, I don't know what to do

@Zae1 I think I'm among the same line of things. I keep going to the deeper and deeper end of my depression. Everyday feels like a lot to recover from. Everyday feels there's nothing left to do but I still get up go to my job do my work. There are times I miss my old self I remember old days. I wish to come back to the very same self of being chirpy, happy, petite healthy girl. But sometimes it's a method of putting in more of self love giving yourself a lot of time to be better again. And understanding that you're a person who is too sensitive for the world to appreciate, so till then keep loving your courage to sit down take some time and then stand. Some days it's harder, some days you know you have your own back more than anyone else and you love yourself for that. 

@Zae1 If someone's stumbles in the walk of life doesn't mean they'll be lost forever......you have taken the most significant step of opening yourself up and accepted your challenges in life. 

Sometimes in life being alive is the best thing you can do for yourself........sometimes if you can go to the next day and survive you'll find happiness in future. 

Just have faith and say hopeful that everything is going to be okay 

Zae I hope you are having a good week so far.  I know its early but hopefully things are going well over there for you.  I'm doing ok for the most part.

@Zae1 hey all I can say is help others and everything , I used to help almost everyone I could even ants so that Lord will see how kind I am and will help me too but I kept no expectations I always told myself that I am doing it to help others not so that I can get benefit from it , Lord did , the lump in my throat is gone and my condition is improving , I can't say much ,but I am too a 17 year old girl . my exams are due soon  so I won't be available at all I took my time over here cause your post was so relatable, if I was able to feel a bit more I may would have cried anyways bye bye : ) , I hope Lord helps you too, I hope it shows  you the right path, my mother says we have to walk on the path ourselves Lord can only guide us or give us the strength to walk . Keep trust in yourself you can do it  , I used to not think much about the fact that I don't feel anything but about ways how I can help myself, I was trying to be solution oriented. I hope my message is not rude or weird , I am only telling you a way which helped me, bye bye . 

Through dark times, through hardships , keep going persist.

If there is darkness without light , be the light .

Observe the children , how happy they are how careless they are enjoying the simplicities of life while we trap ourselves with our thought patterns.

I urge you mighty stranger , this is not the end of your story , its the prologue.

Begin now , find kindness ,find companionship , spread love and forgiveness and keep it up.

Your wellwisher ,

Thoughtful fern.

Hi, Im sorry that this has happend to you, I would love to help you in this dificult times, but I cant do much orther than appriciate that you wrote this, you can be proud of yourself that you somehow talked about it wich can be hard, I really wish for you to find back that little spark of joy from you fravorite thing regardless of new or old because I really belive that that isnt lost but simple misplaced somewhere deep inside you or hiddin by something. Thanks for sharing, have as good as a day you could possibly have <3

Sounds like clinical depression and/or another diagnoses. I would go to a university where they have free counseling and talk to someone. Usually the city or county will have a health department that you can go to to get psychiatric medication. I think it should be your top priority before you do anything else to do what I suggested which is to seek professional help. Your thoughts and symptoms have gone on for too long you need someone to help you from a professional perspective. I really don't see you being able to handle this otherwise.

Hi Zae I wanted to check on you and see how you were doing.  I am doing well on my end.

@Zae1

I understand what you going through. If you need to talk or if you need a listener, I am here to assist you if needed. Hope you get better and know that everything always don't go as planned. have a good day 

Dear Zae, hope you're doing well. Your message felt touching. I'm replying to you, but I'm not here to help, simply because I can't help. It felt touching, because I've been going through the same things as you for three years now. I'm two years senior to you, my college would be over in six months. And I've been battling this since before my school ended. Yes, even I surfed through and got the names you mentioned, anhedonia, emotional burnout. I thought about it before, now I don't. Not that I've accepted it, but I just let it be. I miss being myself. Yes, I too don't feel anything listening to music once I used to do. But sometimes I do, it takes me back to my past, my good old days. I feel like I'm a ghost, who wanders in the past. Who has no vision for the present. Lingering in the past isn't something jolly, yet it has a tremendous pleasure, that doesn't let you go free. 

I don't know what I exactly wanted to say here, or why did I reply you at all. Maybe just wanted to say something founding your issue familiar. I hope to connect to you again. 

Shourya