I’m thinking of leaving cups.

@LoveMyMoonflowers

I relate to your post. I am new here but i already feel like a burden. I always felt this way due to my childhood trauma and i am now trying to work on it. I'm sure you're an amazing person so please don't give up on life! There are things that are worth living even if life sucks sometimes. It makes me sad to know that you are feeling this way. I know this pain way too well and it is so sad to know that others feel it too.

You're unique and you matter a lot! I hope it will get better for you and you will heal from whatever is hurting you💗

@LoveMyMoonflowers

I am so sorry you are feeling so low.

Also please note that you are not alone, many of us feel that we dont belong at certain places or nobody wants us in there lives. It happens to many of us at different points of life. 

But yes I am understanding, completely with you🙁

@lovemymoonflowers 

Niibuddy, sometimes I find myself quite stuck in what to say, or how to put across what I want in a way it could make some sense. 

This is one of those situations. 

At this point, it's so hard to imagine 7 cups without you, just with the title, my mind wandered off to imaginary-cups with no you, and it didn't even reach there completely but I *had to* snap out of the very upsetting thought. So you know? It's just not even possible to imagine 7 cups the same without you. 🥺💖

But, eh, here comes the rational side (🥲) with the whole "but them first" and that's very solid too. You first always, Niibuddy, I see many people have suggested already and I'm so glad they did, about taking breaks from certain rooms/ spaces you feel uncomfortable in, or maybe a break from cups till you feel better to rejoin. 

I do it too, switch rooms, forums, chats, tabs, roles, distance from whatever/ whoever comes in the way of my peace-of-mind. Being here comes with many challenges, I know and I think most of us have experienced them in varied ways, during different times, in distinctive intensities too. 

And it's so much valid to not like every part of cupsing, or being here always, or to vibe with everyone. It's lowkey not very possible-humanly to be okay with everything and everyone all the time. 

You are welcome always and everywhere, Niibuddy, I've personally only known you via forums but goosshhhh again, forumland wouldn't be the same without you.  I feel many people consider forums to be more laid-back way of connecting with peers here, unlike the more regular and intimate contact in PMs or group chats. But I feel forums serve a purpose to bridge that gap, between people having their space and being at their pace, while connecting with others and reaching out too. I'm always super happy to see you in forums and I'm certain others too. 

Super okay to feel overwhelmed, uncomfy, triggered, conflicted, burned out, fatigued (emotionally) etc anything you are feeling. The fact you're able to recognize it and find this space to talk about your current thoughts is immensely commendable and I'm really proud of you! 

Please always choose you first, Niibuddy, your feelings are important and you're allowed to take all the time you need to process how you feel, your thoughts on things too, when it gets a lot, it gets a lot, and no one can ask anything more from you to than to simply just taking out a lil time to catch a breather. 

Removing yourself from spaces and distancing yourself from people not contributing positively to your life, your wellbeing, you is an act of self-care and you're allowed that. I hope taking some time off-off here (if you are considering it) helps you feel better and you can be back at being your amazing self sprinkling all things love and kindness around, like you always do. You deserve kindness and love, soooo much. 

Always remember, whatever you decide for yourself, will have my support and cheer. *koalahuggles tighttt* 🐨🤗💖

Thinking of leaving cups. Again. 💜