Intermission

First of all thank you to everyone I have interacted with on Cups through forums, groups and other activities, the welcome and support has been incredible.

I was lonely and Cups has helped ease that a little but it has meant due to emotional control issues I find myself craving ever more interaction and spending too much time coming to Cups trying to satisfy that need.

The better weather during Spring and summer means it is far harder for me to minimise my risk of thrombosis so i have to be far more mindful of keeping hydrated, my blood flowing and not sitting still for extended periods increasing the risk.

For both reasons I'm deliberately going to restrict my activity on Cups, it's not going to be easy as I have truly apprecaited the genuine warmth friendship and support. I'm not going anywhere but will keep up with group check ins where I can, group chats on nights off and direct messages/pen  pals but will just be quieter in general. It's craving the interaction that is mainly driving my intention, it's a little like putting a plaster on a cut (ironically its thrombosis that heals cuts), I'm going to look for a therapist on my next rotation of nights off to hopefully manage my
emotions better in the longer term reducing the cuts in the first place.

At least it will also cut down my excuses not to increase my efforts of being more mindful too.