Just a lot of Random Things

Just random things!

Well next year I'm gonna be starting high school- like whaaaat!? Dude how did that come so soon!? So either way yea that feels too soon. Other than that, there's this girl who moved from another country, and our parents are friends. She's older than me, and so she obviously needed help filling out the classes thing for school. And oh my goodness how and what and wow, that form thing is honestly really confusing. Cause for us our teachers just told us, like for science you're going to take this class, for math you're going to take this class, you know. And we only get to choose for electives so it was simple enough! But for them you would need to select the core classes plus the electives and I was just so confused most of the time, I just told her which ones I was told to take, and told her to probably not select those since you know she's older and stuff. And yea i feel like i'm going to look so stupid and get so lost in the school. In 7th grade for like 2nd semester, I had gym class. And I didn't know where that was. So after trying to find the room by number (which i wasn't able to), I ended up asking someone. Turns out the enterance to the gym was right behind me... Yea felt really stupid during that. And when I was trying to find my first class on the first day of 7th grade I kept asking like everyone where that room was cause I mean I've never really been in the school before. And then i somehow ended up in the room and asked my teacher where that room was... awkwardddd! And I got lost many times after that too, lol.

Also did you guys know for highschool we have homework? Over the summer? I am honestly so shocked, I've only had summer homework in 5th grade but that wasn't really hard, it was just to read and stuff. Either way yea high school has homework, and I started reading one of the books assigned to me and uhm what!? I'm supposed to understand that? how? I've reread the first few pages maybe 20 times now (all on different days), and I can not understand a single thing from the book. Dang it! Though that's only one of the books! I started reading another one that we were also assigned, and yea it's a lot easier! So I'm casually just reading this book, and then it comes to the point where one of the girls drinks and then tells the group about how she ended up there. And I'm just reading that in shock. My school assigned this to us, and it's the same school that didn't let us do research on murder cases that involved anything innapropriet, and we're supposed to write about this book? I just like wow, shocked haha.

Okay next thing, it's funny the amount of times I have messaged people from my parent's account talking about myself and stuff in ways like "My daughter..." tho what I have always felt weird doing is when they ask me to say those things in real life, but about my sister. it's really really awkward talking about why sister who is only a few years younger than me and saying that she is my daughter... eh i guess that's what happens when Your parents can't speak english very well! it also leads to me being the one applying for jobs that you have to be 21 plus to do (and yes applying for them from my email, but it's my parents who are telling me to do it). Honestly though those jobs that I have to do from my email thing are the ones I would like to be able to work at in the future. It's not a very good job, and it doesn't make much money, but it makes enough for you to be able to live, plus you only need a 6 month training for it!

Next thing now! How. Do. You. Even. Talk. To. People. I can not talk to people at all! but I'm gonna have to once school starts cause guess who has no friends? Meeeee! And i'm going to be so lonely unless i find someone to talk with. I love talking to people, I'm just so afraid that i say the wrong thing or that I'm annoying or that they wouldn't be talking to me, all of that. Oh and afraid of when there's a lot of people. I'm so afraid of people that I'm too scared to even talk in the online chat rooms. yay! I'm just too cool- either way lets let me not be lonely for like a few minutes while i type all of this! So how do you guys even stop being so scared? i barely say anything, and I get that means nobody wants to be friends with me and stuff, i just don't know how I would speak. My voice sounds weird, and I'm not pretty, and i speak quietly so people ask me to repeat what i say so many times and you know that just ends up feeling really bad since I have to say it again and again and I'm already scared enough. People are so scary, I mean even when they're nice to me. It makes me feel like I'm being rude, I can't respond and it's really awkward and i feel like nobody would want to talk to me or be friends at all, and it's stupid I know but kids are sometimes rude, and even if they aren't I'm still scared. This is really gonna suck having to speak to people and meet new people.

Good thing tho is that 7 cups has made me sleep a lot better! The device I'm using for it isn't my phone, so it's loud to type on, and cause of that I have to go to bed at my actual bedtime and can't be on it until after breakfast! And can't do it when my dad is awake either! Which only gives me like 8 hours during when I can be on it! Yay! Less online time!

Okay so there's this girl i met online, she's like 21 or 22 or somewhere there, and we've been chatting since late december 2022, or early january 2023, and she's like really nice and stuff! And she messaged me like 2 weeks ago, and i saw it, and i still haven't responded and I feel so bad cause I always take forever to respond- speaking of talking with people for a while sorry to all the listeners who I've randomly messaged like hours after our conversation and just started telling you about something, like i often do that! So if you're great and i trust you, don't mind if i randomly message you a few months later being like "okay so this just happened in school today"! Like yea I'm the kind of person who does that lol

Speaking of randomly messaging people, this guy who's like 40 now messaged me like 10-ish months ago and we started talking he was weird at first but i mean he hasn't acted weird since like February so that's good! Hmmm that actually might be dangerous messaging older people, but then again there are older people on 7 cups too so I guess it's okay. You know the funny thing is when a 17 year old girl kept talking like "oh you don't know how dangerous the internet is, if you talk with an 18 year old online that could be so dangerous blah blah blah the difference in maturity between a 14 year old and an 18 year old is a lot!" this was like a year ago tho. So idk. She would be almost 18 now, so congrats to her for being an almost adult! Hopefully she finds some better activity then telling kids online that she is trying to help them yet being so rude to them. I heard from others that she's a great girl other than what she kept doing with me and blaming me for her real life problems. but eh. She has her friends who are like in highschool/middle school who will defend her, and I've got mine who are from elementary school/middle school that I try to make sure aren't involved in any arguments, but they would ofc never listen lol.

While we're talking about friends, one of my online friends is turning 13 tomorrow! Yayyyyy! i've been friends with her for over a year now! Really great and smart girl!

Well I think that's the end of all I have to say for now! Sorry if it got left off at random places at some point, all of this took like over an hour to type... haha... I really need to get offline sometimes. Welp bye! have a good day/night everyone! and thank you so much for reading!!!