Just thinking 'bout my life...
... well more accurately, overthinking my life because when I've got a lot of time and little amount of money, friends, connection, communication skills and ya know essential human life stuff, I can just sit here and think about what I could have done better to not end up this day, what could have I said better and stuff. Past stuff I can't control but thinks about them anyways.
And because I'm not done tormenting myself, why not think about a disastrous future too, amirite! Let's see, no friends, no life skills, barely able to think for myself... Yeah, by 25 I'll still be in this same bed I'm on right now, jobless, no friends, no family and living my life lying on the bed and staring until I'm a rotten flesh. And to add salt to the injury, maybe have the lights flickering too because my bills are due their dates and I got no way to pay them...
... I need a restart life button 🔵
If you've read through all, I'm sorry to bring you down with my these messed up thoughts of mine. But I really appreciate you taking time to read it, thank you 🌈✨
Jace out! ✌️
@JaceB
Hi Jace
I'm really sorry to hear that you have so many struggles right now. That is a lot to handle and it would be odd if you weren't feeling overwhelmed and pulled down by it all. It all sounds very unfair.
I too once suffered from overthinking. Although I now think the phrase is rubbish. It's not possible to over think something. You're just worried about all the things on your plate, and that is totally natural. From my experience, the more you try to stop those anxious thoughts, the more they will plague you. Go check out the pink elephant paradox.
I found the reset button through therapy and this site. And I have good news for you. Or maybe surprising news. You've already found it and pushed it! Coming here and sharing that you are not happy with your life and want it to change is a push you start with. You did one small thing for you. And that's a good trick. Can you find another small trick you can do for you? That's what I do, do one small thing for me, when I can.
I guess that something or someone in your past has told you that you are not worth it. That's a lie. You are unique. There will only ever be one of you. Ever. Think on that. Does it not make you special? I believe it does.
I hope you keep coming here and pushing that button. Dig a little and I believe you will find others here who find you equally special.
Life is hard and we are all just bumbling along with torches in the dark, trying not to trip. Come along and bumble with us.
