Lonely
For the past weeks since school ended I've been in my bedroom, alone and watching tik tok all day, i don't eat a lot and the changes have been showed, I'm getting a lot more skinny and hungry but I just can't find the energy to eat, doing so disgusts me, I've just discovered I gained 10kg in the last year and this destroyed me (I was on a diet for all of 2025) I've got anger issues and sometimes I tend to get angry at my family members for small things or I just get mad at myself for when I do mistakes, it's becoming hard to hold on and ima friend reccomended to check this app after I tried to commit suicide some days ago (I failed as y'all can guess) I'm very sceptical of it and I doubt it may help since I've been feeling this way for years but I got nothing to lose anyway.
@Valeriez333
1. For the past weeks since school ended I've been in my bedroom, alone and watching tik tok all day.
Dear Beloved,
What has been keeping you inside? When you yourself understand and share that staying inside is causing you pain, then why not do something that promotes healing?
We need to change our habits and activities to change how we feel. Ask yourself, "Do I really want to heal or feel better, or do I want to continue feeling the same?"
I am sure we all want to feel better. For that, let us make some healthy changes in our routine.
2. i don't eat a lot and the changes have been showed, I'm getting a lot more skinny and hungry but I just can't find the energy to eat, doing so disgusts me.
When we feel sad and lonely, we often do not feel like eating. You seem to have been feeling this for a long time. Your emotional distress is impacting your hunger.
We need to help heal your mind to help heal your body. Your mind is draining you of your energy.
Please share what thoughts are troubling you. What do you think is lacking? What do you think is needed to help you heal? What does your mind need to be happy and healthy again?
3. I've just discovered I gained 10kg in the last year and this destroyed me (I was on a diet for all of 2025)
I can understand that gaining weight is making you feel disturbed, but when your mind is healthy again, we can again work on our weight management.
But that could only happen after your mind is at peace.
Working on how the mind feels should be at the top of the list. Everything else will follow. Emotional health will ultimately lead to better physical health.
4. I've got anger issues and sometimes I tend to get angry at my family members for small things or I just get mad at myself for when I do mistakes, it's becoming hard to hold on and
When the mind is disturbed, it is natural to respond to situations unpredictably.
Because you feel chaotic within, it impacts your patience. We lose our temper easily. Everything is linked to how you feel.
If you yourself do not feel well, you cannot make others around you feel well. Self-care is the first step.
When your relationship with yourself improves, your relationships with others begin to settle down. Over time, your mind becomes calmer and learns to stay at peace in different stimulating situations.
5. ima friend reccomended to check this app after I tried to commit suicide some days ago (I failed as y'all can guess) I'm very sceptical of it and I doubt it may help since I've been feeling this way for years but I got nothing to lose anyway.
You have a wonderful friend who is helping you. Welcome here, and I hope you find the help and support you are seeking.
I am sad about it. This could not be the end of your problems. You will have to start once again. Whoever leaves, they are bound to return here. This doesn't bring liberation. Committing it, nobody is guaranteed liberation. After all, the population of the world is increasing, not declining. The Creator does not seem to have too much place up there. The production line seems to be sending everybody back. Please share what your suffering is. How can it be healed?
I want you to heal. I want you to understand what is causing your suffering and what can be done to heal your pain. I want you to work towards your healing. You have the power to heal your suffering. I believe in your strength. You have to do it for yourself. You have to do it because you do not want to suffer more. You want healing for yourself, not more suffering. I know that you will do everything that makes you feel a bit better than before.
I'm always inside cause I've lost all my friends and I don't have any reason to go out anymore, I used to have 5~ friends that I went out with but they all left me after I failed school, I don't blame them tho.
I do not have any activities or hobbies, the only thing I used to do was riding my bike but here in Italy it has become really hot, like 37° C and I don't want to risk yk a heat stroke or getting sick.
I don't really know what my mind needs to heal, I've never received much help from anyone for my mental state, I went to a school therapist but it didn't help and when my parents found out they didn't seem to care a lot, my father tried to help me becuase he cares about me but my mother doesn't want to spend money and since my family doesn't really have that much money and we barely reach the end of the month I don't think my family might be of help.
I appreciate the fact that you want me to heal and I'm willing to answer any questions you have.
@Valeriez333
I'm always inside cause I've lost all my friends and I don't have any reason to go out anymore, I used to have 5~ friends that I went out with but they all left me after I failed school, I don't blame them tho.
Dear Beloved,
If you feel you do not have reasons to go out and you no longer have friends, let us create reasons and friends. For our healing, we can work towards it. You can think of joining activities that interest you. You may visit a garden and observe people and kids. These small steps can bring you closer to healing.
I do not have any activities or hobbies, the only thing I used to do was riding my bike but here in Italy it has become really hot, like 37° C and I don't want to risk yk a heat stroke or getting sick.
I can understand. We can think of some activities or communities that are inside. I do not want you to be out in the heat at all.
Some options could be joining swimming classes, the gym, dance classes, guitar classes, badminton in the evening, visiting a library to be around people, visiting a garden in the evening, or joining spiritual organizations that conduct regular meetings or classes. This change will allow you to be outside and to be around like-minded people. It can enhance our chances of finding friends instead of sitting at home.
If something is missing, we can always make efforts to fill the gap. We have to do it for ourselves. Nobody can do it for us. There are so many people who are going through painful situations, but we are unable to help them. Similarly, they are unable to help us. We have to help ourselves. I know you have the power to gradually move yourself towards healing.
I don't really know what my mind needs to heal, I've never received much help from anyone for my mental state, I went to a school therapist but it didn't help and when my parents found out they didn't seem to care a lot, my father tried to help me becuase he cares about me but my mother doesn't want to spend money and since my family doesn't really have that much money and we barely reach the end of the month I don't think my family might be of help.
I can feel your pain that no one seems to be helping you, and you lack financial resources as well. If no one is willing to help us, it does not mean that we cannot help ourselves. We cannot leave ourselves in pain forever.
Let us do whatever little we can do to make us feel better. Do more of what makes you feel better and relaxed. Listen to podcasts, audiobooks, or YouTube videos about what you are feeling. Understand from them what you are feeling. What causes such situations? What helps to lessen it gradually?
You can also share with me what is hurting you. What do you think is lacking? What do you want from your life? What do you think is missing? What do you think can heal you? What is your mind crying for? What does it need? Please ask all these questions of yourself and reflect on them.
Your mind is the solution. You have to talk to your mind. You have to answer its questions. It will begin to provide solutions to you. When you reflect, your mind gradually begins to become calm and clear, moving away from a chaotic state.
I appreciate the fact that you want me to heal and I'm willing to answer any questions you have.
I appreciate your strength, your power, and your willingness to help yourself heal. Nobody can do it for us. We cannot do it for anybody. We have to do it ourselves to reduce our suffering.
Nobody else is suffering. We are. If we do not want to suffer more, we have to work towards our healing. Let us learn that our healing is our responsibility.
Sending healing on your way 💕
@Valeriez333 hi Valerie! please message me any time. Glad you are still here. Going through humps like that in life are incredibly difficult and I've been there!!! Watching inspirational videos of people outdoors enjoying life and nature tend to help, also I like to force myself to get outside and walk- even if I don't want to- It always is worth it. Glad you are here <3
