Looking for advice

Not looking for medical advice per say but advice for recources that could lead some help 

I am always honest when I go to health care professionals but they just want to put me on drugs that make living life worse. That make my thinking and reacting worse and I can't really understand my options if I have any at all and honestly. I don't even think they believe me when I try to tell them my story or what I go through.

I was sick for like 3 years. I was having seizures that I thought would never end. Snapped out of that and went on like a 7 year adventure being homeless, living in the streets. From WA to CA. Minding my own business but I was pretty insane. 

Ended up in jail. Was there for 2 years. Not even really coherent to the reasons I was there for most of that time. They sent me to a state hospital for being incompetent to stand trial. I kind of started snapping out of it then. 

I plead guilty to something I know I didn't do. To just get out of there and also I felt like I was incapable of even defending myself.

I feel like I am stuck that way. Like I feel like I am incapable. Incapable of making rational decisions. I mean sometimes feel like a baby or a child but I still get confused why I'm trying to deal with all of this alone so really my question is is there anybody I can reach out to. To figure out options or anything at all. Something or somebody specific. Like a social worker or some kind of advocate. I'm not really finding any help through my local government and I can't really perform all that well when it comes to working.

Just feel like a shattered person. Stuck. Stuck in a place where I don't want to be where I'm not getting any help (A religious program) because homelessness scares the crap out of me. 

I have a really hard time reading websites and this took me an hour to write and I apologize if I'm doing something wrong here.

Thank you in advance.