Not proud. It’s actually erroneous
I’ve been married for 7 years. I just started to piece the amount of abortions I’ve had to have. Totaling 4. I asked if he knew/recalled. He did not. I’m def a horrible person. I never recall it being easy or untroubling. I wanted every baby. How do I live with this?
@blueHouse663
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I appreciate how hard this must have been for you to share.
You are not a horrible person.
Its difficult and something so emotional and hard to deal with.
I'm sending you my best wishes.
At the time you made a decision you felt was right for you, this can have varying conflicting feelings years later, it's important to allow yourself time to process,heal and forgive yourself 💕💜
@Amanda84 Thank you, Ive got work to do. And I really want to, I just hope I havent allowed myself to be altered too drastically, by what others wanted that I can no longer forgive myself.
@blueHouse663
Self forgiveness is always possible. We might alter ourselves to suit other people's ideas of us, but we always remain there, we just have to rediscover ourselves 💜🥰
@blueHouse663 I understand that this is a hard topic to discuss. You are not a bad person, you did not take these decisions lightly, as you explained. Decisions like these are never easy, and often have people second guessing themselves. You are not alone in these feelings.
@Shreya1025 I sincerely, appreciate that. Its a extremely difficult thing to talk about. I feel like im so removed from these actions that I cant even feel the hurt I should really be feeling for what I have done. Despite the fact that it wasnt a decision I took lightly or completely on my own. I allowed my husband to also play apart as I believe he should have? But it wasnt his choice I should have really cared about. But how could I do it all on my own if I had to?
