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blueHouse663
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PathStep 1 Compassion hearts149 Forum posts41 Forum upvotes107 Current upvotes107 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2026 Member sinceJuly 2, 2025
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Alone. Fighting. Defeated with the worst case of heartbreak.

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When there’s no place to turn to …?
General Support / by blueHouse663
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 4 hours ago
...See more I don’t even know how to express how I’ve been feeling, most recently. What does a person do when they know they’re not good? Has relentlessly tried the most things to figure out and address all the constant pressing issues/trauma/emptiness. Pushing forward. Therapy. Prayer. Even reaching out to “family”. 988. Writing/journaling. I’m so regrettably out of options. I feel more stifled and stuck than ever. The feeling that there’s no safe place to break in openly, not just in my head and heart. I’m drowning, in slow motion on repeat. All I ever wanted was to be worthy. A priority. Fought for for once. Protected. So crushed. Left with pain, traumatic memories, limited support, yet demanding and important responsibilities. I never want to abandon my babies. I just feel like the resilience. I developed. Maintained. Fought to never lose, has reached a breaking point. An inevitable fork in the road. One I tried to escape. The other set of shoes have dropped. I don’t know what else to do. Defeated.
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What’s your next move?
Motivation & Accountability / by blueHouse663
Last post
 October 8th
...See more "If you are silent about your pain, they'll “silence” you and say you enjoyed it." Zora Neale Hurston
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The flame is now an ember
General Support / by blueHouse663
Last post
 October 16th
...See more I’m consumed by the loneliness. I’m 36. Two medically fragile toddlers. Been through disappointment and heart break and more heart break since the age of three. I foolishly and naively put all the eggs I had left in one basket. Thinking “meticulously” deciding to finally take matters into my own hands. Start/create a family with someone I felt comfortable. Something I never really had of my own. Seven long years later. I now see I was blinded by my own hopes and desires. Currently. Undergoing a divorce. I initially hoped wouldn’t get to this place. Hoping he’d see, that were worth fighting for. Especially me. Yet, I’m reminded constantly how I’m never a priority. Never fought for or protected. Despite how much I always try. I’m at a point now, where I have no where else to turn. I have no girl friends. Really. Lots of guy acquaintances. None, that genuinely care for my well being. Why continue to foolishly ignore the obvious? Some things just aren’t meant to happen in this life. Despite how hard you try.
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If you…
General Support / by blueHouse663
Last post
 October 8th
...See more With everything your past, present, and future may have lead you, what’s the first thing/most meaningful thing to you, you’d take back and/or do differently?
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The downside of hope
General Support / by blueHouse663
Last post
 August 20th
...See more I just want to scream. When the inevitable “other shoe” finally starts falling. Despite how hard I fought. Sometimes you outlive resilience.
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Is the other shoe finally dropping?
General Support / by blueHouse663
Last post
 August 16th
...See more I’m so Severely empty inside. Every where. My heart. In my body. My soul. Spirit. Only my mind repeatedly creates more and more split thoughts. Incessantly. No reprieve. I build myself up. Break. Build it again with thoughts it’ll be different. Then I break again. So much so now. The up and downs. Have left me fractured. Shattered. I’ve got two medically fragile babies to care for. But feel I have nothing left. To give. To fight.
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Lost
General Support / by blueHouse663
Last post
 August 16th
...See more When you died. I anticipated that it would really hurt. I didn’t know that that would mean the only efforts to find/feel consistency and connection would die with you too. You are my great great grandmother. You were my constant. You didn’t get me. But you were my life line. Now I have no one. Idk what to do. I miss you so much.
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Bartter Syndrome
General Support / by blueHouse663
Last post
 July 1st
...See more Both my toddler’s age 5 and 7 boys have this extremely rare metabolic genetic disorder. Bartter syndrome Because it affects approximately 1 in 1,000,000 individuals, converting this frequency into a percentage results in an incredibly small number Global Breakdown: In a total global population of roughly 8 billion people, a 0.0001% prevalence means only about 8,000 people worldwide live with this condition. Are there any other families experiencing the same condition? Looking for any support. Community. Especially now that I’m a single mother.
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