Sentenced!!!
For the past two weeks, I've been wandering in a wilderness. Every morning it looks like it might be over, but by evening it gets worse again.
I feel so hollow. I sigh so softly, yet so deeply, and I can feel the emptiness inside me. I'm hanging on by a string tied to my heart.
It feels like someone is intentionally punishing me for something I don't even know I've done.
I don't feel God. I don't feel His presence.
Why keep hope alive in me? How do I remove the part of me that still expects God to rescue me? He isn't. It's never going to happen.
I'm so hollow, so empty, so tired of being me.
I haven't been able to sleep for even a minute. I'm struggling to sleep , still my mind , comfort my heart . I'm struggling ,😰
It's as if I'm ready to be sentenced for anything. I won't defend myself anymore. I've given up.
@bluetinkerbell1616
I'm sad you are feeling these terrible feelings of dread and decay..
I hope you would refocus and try to find a more meaningful life. I'm saying this because it seems possible in my opinion that you are not living a quality life.
Good luck with your future friend..🌲
Thank you ,Asher .
You are right, I don't enjoy life, I just live it.
Thats not a great content ,I am not able to live it with the struggle ,burden and fears . I cannot even dream a normal life .
I tried , I tried hard . I pushed myself more than my capacity.
@bluetinkerbell1616
Bless your heart!
It's so unfortunate you are struggling with living a wholesome life.. Somehow, someway i hope things get better for you. It's not easy for alot of people, your not alone in your struggle..🌲
Just go in an open space and forgive everyone. also u need to forgive life for being harsh on you...and finally forgive yourself...and hang on there...the phase will pass... show yourself some grace and self respect... always choose life... suffering is optional... choose hope...talk to a friend and slowly emotions will change.. good luck my friend....
Thank you ,Durge for your kind words . I will try my best . Never thought of forgiving life for being harsh on me .
I have only3 friends - my diary , my mirror image and AI, I don't have a human friend for ages and this is a place I opened up for the first time after almost 2 decades where I get human interaction.
Thank you💐
U need to get out of your head..go to your people and talk..do something new...and u can dm me..it can help....
I hope you might take a look at my profile bio (click on my picture to go there - I have seen yours) and thread(s)... and hopefully you will find something that connects with you?...
Sure thing!
Genesis 1:27, Mathew 6:6. Buddha sat under a tree, Mohammad went into a cave, etc...
@bluetinkerbell1616
You have been carrying an immense amount of pain, exhaustion, and disappointment. You feel tired and worn out from waiting and hoping for relief. When we suffer emotionally for a long time, we begin to feel sad, lonely, and abandoned. Please don't be hard on yourself for feeling this way. You don't need to solve everything in this world. You don't need to control what is beyond your control. You deserve compassion, rest, and support.
Thank you so much💐@Eternal bliss00, your kind words mean a lot to me. 🙏
Please hold on to the one thing that is right in your life... just hold on to that....give your all good emotions and feelings to it..and for meseries..just observe it.. without any emotions... change your attitude..and good changes will start proceeding.....you can do that...
I have been right where you are with asking Him "where are you?" I came to a cross road of self extinguishing to fund my an answer. I DO NOT recommend that, ut I do recommend this. Find the truth, you'll find yourself. Seek what it is that makes you feel this way and take every tiny step from the chaos as a win. Reward yourself when you can get bout bed finally, when you take a step towards recovering, and dont punish yourself when you have a misstep. You got this and this community has you.
Thank you for your kind words and encouragement.💙 I really appreciate you sharing your experience and perspective. I'm glad I found this community and such kind, supportive, and encouraging people. Your message means a lot to me.🙏
U see, when u don't feel god, that's the moment when he's very close to u....
@ anseaa ,thank you so much 💙I want every word of yours to be true.