Spiralling whirlpool of dread

Why is it when life gives you lemons, it intentionally takes the juice and squeezes them into your eye sockets? No matter how you try to bring yourself up or control how you react it is wrong to everyone else? Why is it when you feel like you finally are able to take two steps forward, something or someone comes along and knocks you back ten? I’m hoping to connect to someone so I can ignore what’s going on in my life and help with theirs. My spiralling whirlpool of dread is bringing me down and in connecting with someone, I hope it will keep me afloat a lot longer.