Struggling
TW: Heavy topics
I've been mentally struggling really bad lately and I don't know how to hold it all. I don't honestly know what I need. I guess somewhere to let the thoughts and feelings out. I don't understand why I matter or why it matters if I'm still here or not. I don't understand why or how I have worth. I'm just a useless, worthless, traumatized human being taking up space that belongs to someone more worthy. I don't belong in this world, I'm unfit. I've been alone and struggling with these thoughts for a while and just wish I had someone to hold me. But I don't deserve care or support. I don't know. Just wanted to put this outside of myself even though I'm unworthy of this space.
@Felingina
Wow you were not kidding about it being heavy.
I am fascinated by where this comes from ... I mean I went thru some dark times and felt some similar things but most of what you wrote out just seem to be the feelings of someone else
Letting all these thoughts out is good ... as we re- read them and I highly suggest you do... what would you say to this pretending someone else wrote it?
everyone deserves support and someone to listen. On what scale do we measure worthiness... I think we find our self and worth in small ways.. maybe helping someone else or not even knowing something we have done made a difference.