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Hi, I'm not really good at communicating and stuff but I really need help.

I have characteristics from severe ADHD and severe OCD but it's neither of them with overthinking, self blame and i used to have suicidal thoughts till about last year,

I don't know why but I don't like people. Not everyone but most people, I have no friends I can share this stuff with and nobody to help me deal with this.

I don't have any socials, I don't talk to people.

Crowded places overwhelm me way too much

I can't do anything without music, it's the only safe space I know.

It's really starting to bother me now that I'm about to graduate high school in a few months and i need to learn to communicate for college applications.

I don't really care about having friends or anything because it's always been just me, but I need to learn to stop this constant comparison to others and self blame.

So yea, it's partially my fault too. I waited till it was this bad to seek help.

I can't tell my parents or any grown trusted adult or anybody bc I'm from a country that doesn't actually care about kid's mental health, only their marks. So if I tell them they're just gonna tell me to get over it.

Thank you for reading all this.