🌿 Therapy – Next Step for Today: Unburdening My Heart 💔
💔 Your ego was always bigger than my pain.
🥀 You gave me comfort for a moment and pain for a lifetime.
😔 You never cared for real,not when I was hurting, not when I was trying to heal.
🖤 Instead, you added more pain to my darkest days.
🚫 I don't want to see you ever again, in this life or the next.
💢 I truly hate you now.
🙏 Lord, help me forget the most heartless, cold, and stone-hearted friend I have ever known. They left me when I needed them the most. 🥀🖤🌊Fighting for my life, breaking inside, barely holding on,even when I wanted to die, it didn’t matter to them.
💔🖤 Strangers cared here when others didn’t and now they feel like family💙, not strangers.
💔 It's hurting me more than words can say that I trusted wrong people in life.
@bluetinkerbell1616
Thank you Amanda, 🍀you are always there from everyone. This morning I struggled to get off bed and only made it around 3 p.m. 😞 I was extremely frustrated because my health is getting worse .
I was also experiencing heavy bleeding, severe pain,111 sent me to hospital and now in the hospital emergency queue for the last three hours. 🏥😣
I really needed someone to talk to who understood my situation, but other than 7 Cups, I had no one. 💔 I family is not aware I'm suffering for months😔
The one friend who knew wasn't there when I needed them most, so today I decided to block them and let go. 🚫🥀 It hurts, and my heart is breaking 💔😭, but their coldness was hurting me more. Right now, I need peace and healing. ❤️🩹 I would never want them to even know that I'm gone, if I do .
@bluetinkerbell1616
I hope the bleeding and pain has eased now 🩷
An absolute pleasure to listen and reach out to you 💛
Hi sister, thank you for asking. ❤️
It took 5 hours in the hospital A&E yesterday. By the time I came back, it was midnight. I was screaming at the bus stop loudly, it was a non-residential area. I cried like a child, with strange noises and I was very overwhelmed. 😔
Then I came home, slept, and this morning there was another depressing incident. I couldn’t take it, so I harmed myself. I kept slapping my face hard nearly over 100 times until I was tired and exhausted n went straight to bed, it was in my mind like I would hurt myself before God does. I pray so much, but I don’t know why He chose me for all this. 😢🙏and continuous abandonment.
I am not feeling okay. My head is spinning. I feel like nothing good will happen in life, and the rest of my life will only be sadness and fear. I’m not happy, and I don’t feel like healing anymore. I don’t feel okay.
I want to cut ties with everyone who cares for me for no reason and just isolate myself. 🥀
I don't know what to do or what I will do !
I don't even feel to ask for prayers anymore . Nothing is working and I at time I console others everything will be fine but it won't for anyone , the chosen one lucky ones made through and moved on the rest only live by hoping and fake wishful thinking only- I don't want to make anyone feel negative but I feel for them I know they are also in so much pain I can't read I can feel what the feel just like I suffocate when claustrophobic.
Huhhhh deep-sigh ! 🖤🖤Wish my soul leaves with it so easy!
@bluetinkerbell1616
😔
You really have been through so much 💙
My heart breaks for you, hearing how distressed you are.
It's endless and tiring and it feels so impossible right now.
But trust me, hold onto, be gentle with yourself.
Don't hurt yourself and add to your pain.
Let us hold your pain until you are ready to heal again.
And you will be 🩷
@bluetinkerbell1616
from wondering if it ever happened, if it meant anything, if it even existed, to being neither happy nor sad, just carrying a constant ache.. you have had quite the journey, unseen.🕯️
@NewbWanderer,😊Thank you so much for your wonderful text 💙✨
@bluetinkerbell1616
I could follow your thought process (/words from the post and the replies above) through and through. It drew me in quickly. Thank you for being relatable enough
@bluetinkerbell1616 I hope you're doing a little better now. Even if not, it's totally fine and relatable!
@NewbWanderer,
Thank you 💟honestly, I think I just process things by writing them down. I feel much better now and I’ve recovered a lot over the past two months 💙. I’m really glad you could follow my thoughts though, and that they felt relatable to you ✨