Tried to face my anxiety trigger today
still triggering, but not as bad as last time. But I can feel myself panicking 🥲
@hopefulencounter How are you feeling now? <3 That's a great achievement and not at all an easy one.
@BlueDarkAurora I feel weird, better but still sad .. Maybe if it made me feel worse in the next few days then I'll avoid it again.
@hopefulencounter That's reasonable, there's no need to take it all at once. I'm pushing one of my fears too and I'm terrified but it's worth the try :)
@BlueDarkAurora thank you for your understanding. It's very weird, because I know that I shouldn't return to this trigger but this morning I come back to it.. :')
How did you push away your fear from something's so triggering..?
@hopefulencounter I think half of the power these things hold comes from the anticipation and add to that my ability to recall things way worse than what they usually were like. Some of the triggers get so terrifying that even anything remotely related to them gets the heart racing.
I've not faced my fear yet but I'm going to and what I'm doing is that I'm trying to accept whatever it is that I'm feeling and going to feel, just promising myself that it's okay if I breakdown or if it marks this entire month as a bad one but I'll hold on to the pride that I tried even if it's covered in regret. And maybe hopefully next time I recall facing my fear again, I'll glorify the fight I fought and how I made it out alive.
@BlueDarkAurora I see, that's inspiring.. I wish good luck for us, it's okay to take a break or go away from it when it becomes too overwhelming. I'm still not sure I'll be able to overcome this fear or not.. but I hope I can.. T
@hopefulencounter I'll hope the same for the both of us <3 ^-^
How are u now? Is everything better? And I can honestly relate with you
@Abdiwadi I feel better but it also weird , like I don't completely feel safe everytime I face this anxiety trigger. If it makes me feel overwhelmed then I'll surely stay away from it again.. How about you, how do you feel?
@hopefulencounter I feel pretty stressed about today I have this sort thing going on and I’m pretty nervous to see how it goes. But other than that everything is good. How about you?
@Abdiwadi I see .. nervous is such a difficult feeling. I understand how you feel. A lot of people said that we have to stay calm and let it flow.. but that's easier said than done 😭. So.. yeah. I still feel anxious sometimes but I try not to feel so scared about it
Yeah I hear you, sorry my thing is glitched I may have replied twice so don’t bother responding to the other one. But it’s nice talking to you.
@Abdiwadi it's okay:"))
it's been nice talking with you too!
@hopefulencounter I’’m pretty nervous for today i have something goes on for me and I hope it goes well but other than that I am doing alright, how about you?