Trigger warning. My ask for help
Say alone in a cold dark cage,
Knowing they will be back soon
I really wish someone had cared someone had known
The pain I was going through.
Memories of a haunted past bring visions to my mind
Trying to heal my inner child, who had been left behind.
My story not completely told, many secrets I have kept.
I sleep with the door locked, curled as closely to the wall as possible,
You took away my innocence left me disabled and scarred.
I was just your toy to scared to even speak
When I say I'm sorry, it still feels like
Please don't hurt me.
How do I close theese wounds?
How do I stop the pain? 😢😢
@Tinywhisper11
well , sorry to hear about what happened until now but isnt it possible to just ignore the pain and create new memories in your life in order to wipe off the previous memories?
@Skansly yeah. That's actually what I'm trying to do. It's been almost 4 years since me and some others were rescued from that horrible place. I'm trying to move on I really am ❤
@Skansly
I wish it were that easy. :(
@jesusredeemedme2425
it actually is , to make new memories you need a close person, a destination and few photos.
@Tinywhisper11 hi im sorry to hear all that if u wanna talk hmu
@politeShoe5727 ❤ thankyou
@Tinywhisper11
I hear you !
Please come to the Sharing Circle chat room where other members of 7Cups.com will listen
to you and support you ! 😊
@spongbobishappy ok ❤
@Tinywhisper11
I would love to help you if you will let me. You can feel free to vent with me and everything you say will stay between us
@CalmCup43 🤗 that's very kind Thank you ❤
@Tinywhisper11
Of course girlie!
@Tinywhisper11
Whatever happened to you, you didn't deserve.
I truly wish I knew how to offer to be there for you on this site other than just in comments.
I can relate to one thing... People can't care if they don't know. They usually don't know until it's way too late. To this day, there are parts of stuff I've been through that I've never told. Even if I did, they almost definitely wouldn't be understood. Anyway, if you have any more to say, I'll listen.
@Torean gives you giant tiny hug ❤ thanks ❤
Well. You don't stop the pain. And don't ignore it. Never distract yourself from what will lead you to the source. Observe and sit with it. Embrace the pain to find peace with it so that when it rises again you would not suffer it so greatly. There would be a separation between you and the pain, no longer identifying with it.
In other words you don't stop the pain and you don't close the wounds, that happens during something else. Acceptance. With distraction there is prolongation of the problem. With meditative and mindful practice including contemplation and the awareness of thought the wounds begin to heal when one learns what it is to accept. It would be like bending and returning to your shape like bamboo. Instead of suffering the past in the mind you will learn to endure as all the elements do. For me... I have learned that it is selfish to myself for not allowing myself to shine in the darkness because of my fear of what might be hiding in it. Give yourself a chance. Despite all your past trials here you are... Alive. With the privilege of remembering anything at all. You are breathing. To forget the beauty of the present moment is to dwell in the imaginary times we call the future and the past.
@BodhisattvaKuato bohdi when did you become so wise 😋 I love you bohdi ❤ thanks and I am trying I really am
Attachment to the past. That is the simplest way to put it. To be emotionally invested in the past is to rob yourself of the present moment. When a person desires change they are invested. To desire the past to be different is wishing for it to change which means there is an investment in the past. It doesn't matter if the past is pleasant or unpleasant. Either way dwelling in the past victories and defeats robs you of the present moment. To become truly present is sweeter than any past achievement because it will make you more aware of the importance of neutrality. Stability.
@BodhisattvaKuato I'm not sure if I understand completely. But ok I will try ❤ thankyou
Thinking of you and hoping you found the support you wish for. I think healing happens once we have compassionate caring listeners/witnesses. You have a beautiful gift for writing. Thank you for bringing it here. Your strength in healing will be a bright light for others. 💓
@funnyOwl2072 thanks ❤
@Tinywhisper11,
I wish I could find the right words to say to be able to help, but I know nothing I can say could possibly shift the pain you’re feeling, but I do want you to know that you are never lone. I am so proud of you that you are trying to take yourself to a better spot! Its really commendable for you to reach out for support. You always deserve it and it's always available when you need us. Huge hugs (if it's okay)
Also is this written in a song format ? I don't have much idea about the format, just curious..
@SilverMistakes no it's written beautifully ❤ thanks ❤
@Tinywhisper11
What bothers me is that I'm aware of this happening now, but I have no idea how to help fix it. :( Except for donating to causes that work against sex trafficking. What can we do? <3 Any thoughts?
@jesusredeemedme2425
I'd like to know too.
@jesusredeemedme2425 @Torean I have no idea😥 I'm not supposed to speak up about this, some information I can't give out, cause I'll get in trouble. There are lots of charities, and people who's jobs are to help as many as possible, and try to put an end to these things. But truth is it won't end, theese things go right up to the (not allowed to say word, on 7 cups) 😥 there's just so much of these things happening all over the world. I've met and talked to quite a few others here who have gone through similar things, but they don't post their stories here out of fear😞 the law enforcers and people who work in this field are over righted by the (not allowed to say word) 🤔🤔 (trump, boris, people, )who are enabling this to carry on, it won't stop😥 guilt of knowing and seeing what happens to people like me, says me up inside. There's nothing I can do
@Tinywhisper11
I can kinda fill in the blanks, I've done some of my own research too. I feel like we're getting into an age where destroying these things can be achieved though. Like, little by little, things are coming out about things, such as things that were going on with Nickelodeon. The public in general is ready to turn their backs on anything like this.
I know that the general public doing that, in this case, might not even make a dent because of the nature of it. People are upset about with powers that be in general also though, and there's a certain island that a lot of people went to that's been under fire for good reason. Younger generations are exposing corruption everywhere that they see it. I'm a big fan of gen z, they won't stand for things like that.
So, I think it's just a matter of time. I'll help speed it up if I get the opportunity. I wouldn't want you saying anything that makes you have to deal with more than you already do. I just... As deep as it goes, it has to end somewhere. I just want you to know that it's not all hopeless, especially when people are starting to care.
@Torean
What happened with Nickelodeon? That sounds vaguely familiar…
Part of the problem is that these people are just dangerous, as Tiny has described. How can you fight them if they have no qualms about killing people?
A certain island?
We care. We just feel helpless, like our hands are tied, and we don’t know what to do, yk?
@jesusredeemedme2425
For Nickelodeon, if you Google Dan Schneider, you'll see a very gross tip of a very gross iceberg of abuse. The other one, I was referring to Epstein.
Anyway, I feel like danger can come in a lot of forms. If they're willing to unalive someone, it's indicative of a weakness. They're never going to be in the right, so it's just a matter of them losing their anonymity and becoming too much of a liability to be in so many people's pockets. I think more and more leaks are going to happen. I agree with you though, I wish I knew what more we could do.
@Torean
Maybe I'm glad for the ignorance about those in a way... Especially about Nickelodeon. They worked with kids... *shudders* Stupid disgusting people. :(
@Tinywhisper11
It's a really hard matter. What they need is a mix of awareness and subtlety, so people know about it, but the bad people are clueless about any busts about to happen. Then more people will know, and more people will be rescued.
(I hope that was coherent lol)
@jesusredeemedme2425 @Torean I love you both ❤❤ thankyou ❤ 7 cups is the only way I can spread awarness. But there are more good than bad, nothing is hopeless, one day everyone will be safe and free ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
Please... tell us more. You are our only link to things like this... The only one we know who survived and thrived. Tell us whatever you can... What you did, how you felt, the good things that buoyed you, etc. Whatever you can talk about safely, without bringing back bad memories. <3 We can only learn through your experiences <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 I'm not sure what else I can tell you? But there was no good. Just fear and pain
@Tinywhisper11
They taught you to read and write, at least... You have such an advantage and your life is more beautiful because of that <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 that's right, they did teach me that, not in a nice way, but still, I guess they aren't all that bad ❤
@Tinywhisper11
You wouldn't be able to enjoy 7Cups otherwise <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 trigger warning-abuse.... I know they did teach me to read and write, but they also used shock collers, and whips to teach me with😥 so I don't know. Do you think all people are good to a certain extent??
@Tinywhisper11
I'm so sorry :'(
What was their reasoning behind teaching you to read and write?
Actually, no.
23 For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;
I know a lot of people do have good parts about them, but overall, we are all sinners. We all mess up, make bad choices, deliberately do bad things. So we are all technically bad.