Trying to Hold On When Everything Feels Heavy
There's only so much you can take,
only so many times before you break.
I carry a lot of shame and blame. I never been to school, I'm not educated. I look different, a freak. I put on a smile, live in a little bubble, I want to help everyone, I wish I could have everyones pain of them, or at least help in some sort of way. I want to be braver, I want to have courage, I want to be so many things, but for me they will only ever be a dream.
Just broken
@Tinywhisper11 🌻
Was just checking in on you
I’m so glad you’re feeling better Lola ❤️
Hugs 🫂 🌻
@Greentrees2325 hugggs back ❤❤ thanks for checking in ❤❤ I love you
🌸 @Tinywhisper11 🌸
🥰 I love you too ❤️ ❤️ ❤️
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🌸 @Tinywhisper11 🌸
Hi Lola 🌻
I’ve written you a poem (with a little help from ChatGPT).
I hope it makes you feel a bit better ❤️❤️.
When the weight of the world feels hard to bear,
And life's troubles seem too much to share,
Remember this, my dear friend true,
Brighter days will come to you.
When life throws lemons, we'll make lemonade,
With laughter as our sweet serenade.
For in the darkest hour, a friend is near,
To wipe away each silent tear.
With silly jokes and goofy grins,
We'll find the strength to rise and win.
For in each other, we'll always find,
The love and support that's one of a kind.
So let's turn those frowns upside down,
And banish worries with a joyful sound.
Let joy be your compass, and love your guide,
In this grand adventure, let your spirit glide.
With each passing moment, let happiness reign,
For in your joy, you'll find peace again.
And with your smile, the world finds its light,
A beacon of hope, shining ever so bright.
🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷
@Greentrees2325 awwwww thankyou so much ❤❤❤ that was very sweet ❤❤ hugs you tightly ❤
Glad you liked it. 🌻 Hugs you back 😊🌸❤️
don't know why, but I know there is this guy and I feel it can be of inspiration to you:
https://www.***.com/share/q6MY6jj46W74uWTx/
or
https://www.adaptiveclimbingcoalition.org/blog-3
hugs to you 🫂
the first link is a *** link to his profile.. Rand Abbott
@GentleBeing797 hugs you back ❤ thankyou ❤ are those safe links?? Not you tube or social media??
yes safe, one is a social media page about this para-climbing athlete.. one link is about his association where he offers lessons, courses and meeting with people with disabilities.. just to give you some inspiration for motivation and outdoor activities
you can find his pages googling for Rand Abbott climbing.
Dear ‘just broken,’
You are not, in fact, ‘just’ broken, for the word ‘just’ implies simplicity & inevitability. It denies hope of eternal possibility, of potential change & optimism, which is the spark needed to ignite self healing.
There’s a saying: Even Broken Crayons Can Color/Write.
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This is only the beginning;
Initial Break: ‘Level 1’ mindset.
I use the word initial with caution
& wish to clarify〜
This state of being can still be the culminated effect
or outcome of years upon years of emotional/physical/
mental suffering/abuse/trauma/struggle.
If this is You:
Please give yourself love.
Right now. Water, tea, smoothie, ice cream. Do something (‘healthy,’ as in without long term —or preferably short term—harmful effects). Something to energetically feel ‘better’ or more comfortable in your body—in the present moment.
Go.
Walk outside for a moment. Breathe. Inhale & exhale deeply. Ask someone for a hug. Curl up in a soft blanket. Pet your dog or cat. Or penguin.
Something.
Anything.
Do it.
I’ll wait for you.
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However.
With enough time &
self transformation〜
Eventually, You will realize:
Broken Crayons can Grow, Shift, & Become More ‘Complete’ & Powerful than they ever were prior to having been Broken ‘in the beginning.’
I recommend you look up the Japanese concept of Kintsukuroi, or Kinsugi: the art of repairing broken pottery by mending areas of breakage/injury with gold/silver/platinum lacquer. ‘Revitalized pieces’ are symbols of warrior souls: those who having been through ***, & ultimately become stronger, wiser, more resilient & empathic for experiencing darkness & (somehow) surviving their time in ‘Purgatory’ [Dark Night of the Soul]—> traveling back (despite pain & difficulty) into the light.
Please be gentle with yourself.
Take each step forward with care & intention.
Don’t give up_ Ever.
If things have been difficult for seemingly ‘ever’
don’t expect immediate, irreversible progress.
Radical change is possible,
But maintenance requires daily upkeep.
Like showers or bathing.
Dusting & cleaning.
Start each day anew
& don’t forget to live a little_
Take care of yourself_
Always.
Know you are loved.
If no one else—
I love you.
Deeply, as a fellow human being.
I see the light you carry, in wanting to
Become a healer of yourself & others.
Sending unconditional love.
From one stranger to another.
We are all relatives, whether close or distant
On this Planet we call home.
Holding you in my thoughts.
Hope exists. Seek it.
Find it. & Never let it go.
Your life is precious & more valuable than you know.
I, we, the universe, believe in you.
Be well.
If you’ve been asking for a sign,
Let this be it. Find trustworthy people
To form an alliance with & slowly,
Create a support network. Never are
you truly alone. Good people do exist.
In fact, we’re quite numerous. You
’just’ need to know where to look.
🩵 Solac3Seeker
I’m sorry for the massive spacing. Not sure why that happened. We’ve never met, spoken, or written to each other before (as far as I can tell), but you seem like an extraordinarily wonderful person who deserves all the things. BIGGEST hugs.
Also. I’m sincerely sorry if anything I wrote struck you as insensitive. I did not (& do not) know the specifics of your particular situation & was offering generic advice w/ pure intention. All the love. XO E
[Note] I’m relatively new to forums. Do I need to include @tinywhisper11 for you to see this? 💎
@solac3seeker
No, She'll get a notification just because it is her thread. Also, when replying to an author of a post, it automatically notifies the author. You can use the username @solac3seeker when the article has no connection to the member, like from nother thread but you want another paticular member see it too and share it with ohers... multible usernames and they'll all get a notification.
If you and I are both reading the same thread but we have never connected, we independently get an application that there was action on this thread. That is as long as we got the check box marked that we wanna be notified post to an interested thread.
Anyway that's the best I know how to explain it and i know sometimes the server goes awry and notifications don't get sent all the time. but thats rare.
@solac3seeker I got the notification🙂❤❤ thankyou very much for your kind supportive words ❤❤ this was very sweet of you ❤ and welcome to the forums, gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤ thank you
Hi Lola :) I've been accompanying your posts here in the community for a while, and I'm sorry you're hurting like that, but it happens, and you'll get through it❤️. I feel a lot like that with my disability, it left me with different difficulties navigating life. I often feel like people can't understand it, but yet, here you are, putting into words that silly feeling. And I think everyone feels like that to some extent, we all feel like we are not enough sometimes. But if there's even a single thing we are doing that helps someone (like you helping me and tons of other people with your story) that makes life worth it. Stay strong my friend, and thank you for being honest ❤️
@cyanHuman4654 thankyou so much ❤❤ hugs you tightly ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
Hey Kiddo, did you miss all the cake and ice cream I gave you the other day? Go check the pantry, I had to post it elsewhere. 😁😉 I hope it didn't all melt.😧
How are you feeling today? 💗
@IsayUncle 😮😮😮 goes to check pantry 😁❤ I'm doing ok, trying to keep strong 🙂❤❤ thanks for checking in on me ❤ your the sweetest ❤ hugs you tightly ❤
You are really wonderful how can a girl like you have a passion for helping everyone even though you didn't say I want someone to bear me you take everyone and you want to help everyone you are wonderful
@abdessamadelmadri ❤ thankyou ❤❤ I'm doing ok now ❤ just get bad days, like everyone else ❤so many people have shown me support, I'm very grateful to you all ❤❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤
Can I talk to you? I want this
I want to talk to you
@abdessamadelmadri we can talk here ❤❤ I don't like 1-1 chats after a little bullying incident, but yeah we can talk here ❤
Don't worry listen you deserve the best that can be done from anyone you should be treated like a princess your mind is beautiful and you've been through harsh circumstances on you i'd like to tell you I'm with you and I'll talk to you whenever you want dwon't abandon you there are beautiful people not all people are bad trust me you deserve the best i'm with you
@abdessamadelmadri thankyou ❤ that's very very sweet of you ❤ you seem like a great person, and I know there are more good than bad people. I just need time ❤❤
Listen i'm here for you if you need to talk just talk to me I'm with you i promise you you're a wonderful person my heart is open to you anytime i'll listen to you and help you if you need me i'm with you and I'll be happy i'll wait for you and you'll stay in my mind don't worry i don't want you to worry because i'm with you ♥️🌸
@abdessamadelmadri thankyou ❤
I feel this so much. Everything seems hopeless. I’m sick of being told to be strong. That I’m “weak minded” for feeling how I feel. People who say that have almost never had so much mental turmoil and it angers me.
@raspberryEyes5486 hugs you tightly ❤❤ your struggling to?😥 what's going on sweetie?
So much that I’m to tired to list here. It has made me angry and bitter
@raspberryEyes5486 hugs you tightly ❤❤ I'm here if you ever need me ❤ try get some rest
@Tinywhisper11 None of that is true whisper, and don't let anyone tell you that. I'm speak 100%. This isn't a motivational speech, It's a reality check. If you believe in what you are say, then it will be true and you will ruin chances, bit by bit. Don't listen to the negative things, by others or yourself. Put them to the test and don't give up. If you have been handling issues for years, its going to take some time,.... and its the time that will make it better, you just need the time along with the actions to correct the problems. So without the actions nor the time, then it becomes futile. So make the time, do what is necessary! Find the help, there is always help! Then do all of the POSITIVE things that you need to do. I can speak it, but i've also walked it.
@Healthymarch10th some typos there as I have a great deal going on... I meant to say, i'm speaking 100% truth, and that you shouldn't believe in what you are saying when it's negative,..... and that time isn't what is going to heal you, but that, YES!, you need the time, along with the actions. Sorry for my typos
@Healthymarch10th I know your right ❤ thankyou for your kind supportive words ❤❤ I really appreciate that ❤ and please no I will never give up, I'm trying hard everyday ❤❤thankyou
@Tinywhisper11 Then please, Post an Update!!! Because its motivational, to hear Truth! And when we hear the bad, especially when its contorted, it can lead us to a dark spot. Please I beg of you! Thank you for replying..... PS I found you!
@Healthymarch10th you found me🤔🤔🤔 do we no each other??
@Tinywhisper11 Yes, I have been trying to get a hold of you each time, through your feeds lol
@Healthymarch10th oh I'm sorry ❤ I'm here now ❤ I'm trying to think of an update post🤔 but I'm not sure what to say for it
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