Trying to Hold On When Everything Feels Heavy
There's only so much you can take,
only so many times before you break.
I carry a lot of shame and blame. I never been to school, I'm not educated. I look different, a freak. I put on a smile, live in a little bubble, I want to help everyone, I wish I could have everyones pain of them, or at least help in some sort of way. I want to be braver, I want to have courage, I want to be so many things, but for me they will only ever be a dream.
Just broken
@Tinywhisper11
*sits with lola* my sweet friend 💜 i’m so sorry you’re hurting so much right now. 😞 tbh - i think you’re already vvv brave, buddy. braver than you think you are. you’re one of the bravest people i know. you’ve been through too much, from such a young age… 😞 and yet, you’re still here with us now, shining your light and being the lola we all love so vvv dearly. 💜 i think it’s brave of you, and so strong, that you’re here, that you’ve made it this far. you’ve kept going 💜 and i’m so proud of you, my sweet friend. you’re braver and stronger than you think you are. :')
lovely friend thinks you’re beautiful, inside and out, lola. but i understand, you don’t see that in yourself right now. after people hurt us, it’s like… we stop loving ourselves. we stop seeing the beauty in ourselves. but, lola beanie, i see so much beauty in you. there is so so much beauty in you. i see it, and so many other lovely people here do, too. 💜
i don’t have all the right words, i wish i did. i wish i had magical words that could make things better in your world. that would take away the pain. 😞 but i don’t have that magic…
so i’m sitting with you, here. and i’m giving you a massive hug 💜 letting you know i love you beyond words. and i want to be there for you, if you need me. i love you so much. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers Everything I read here is magical. Ni, thank you for ♡ing our sweet Tiny! You're the sweetest, my lovely moon friend. I'm still trying to figure out where you couldn't find the words, because everything you wrote is heartfelt and beautiful! Just like you 💜🌛🌸🌷!
@YourCaringConfidant
awwe, just desiree never missing a single chance to spread some sweetness around. 🥺 thank you, for loving our sweet Tiny friend too. 💜 she deserves all the love in this world. 💜 (and that includes her own love, too… but it can be hard to love ourselves. 😞 it takes time, i think.)
you’re always so kind and lovely, desiree. thank you for being you 💜 i appreciate you. and i agree with everything you wrote in your note to lola bean, too. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers hugs you back tightly ❤ thanks lovely ❤ just been a bad day
@Tinywhisper11
*keeps hugging you vvv tight* i hear you lola. 💜 it’s okie to have some bad days, too, friend. 💜 we sit with our lola beanie some days and have a good giggle together 💜 but we are here with you, we are here for you on your bad days too, my sweet friend. 💜
i’m just a tag away if you need me okay? 💜 love you friend - so much. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers ❤❤ I love you more ❤
@Tinywhisper11
hmmm not possible friend lol me loves you more 😛💜 but okiiiieee, you can win this time.🤭
@Tinywhisper11 No way would I ever want you to have added pain. You've already had your share. I believe you are stronger than what you think because you've been through the unimaginable. You made it. You're still here with life within you. And even with all you've gone through, you still turned out to be the most beautiful, loving Tiny I ever did see. Most times we hear "hurt people hurt people" or that sometimes it's hard to love because it's something we weren't taught. But in the case of you, it's like love literally lives within you. You just have a way about you that makes people fall in love with you. And you know what this proves for me? For me, it's proof that there is a God that does exist and he loves you very much. Tiny, please never forget that He can provide that strength in you. You are so special and I love your heart, so there's no way I would ever want you to have added pains. I just want to hug you and let you know I love you and care about you. ♡ Xoxo.
@YourCaringConfidant
beautifully said, Desi. 💜 I agree completely.
I think most people, at some level (even if they don't talk about it), want to be more &/or better than they are. You are not alone in that. And yes, no one is truly unbreakable...anyone can shatter if (s)he gets put thru enough cr.ap. That doesn't happen to most people in civilized nations...but it did happen to you.
There is no way to change the past. All any of us can do is get through the days, & try to build a better future.
@slowdecline48 thanks dec ❤ I am trying, I really am
@Tinywhisper11 Still trying & yet too often it seems like you're getting nowhere...right?
I know the feeling.
@Tinywhisper11 I feel you here. I'm someone whose life started very difficult, with countless challenges, but I always stood up against all of them and today life feels awesome! Just remember that keep working and moving forward, and life will reward you in great ways!
We can talk, too. I'd like to hear more from you and support you in your difficulties
@gregariousLake4824 ❤ yeah life has not been kind, but now I'm safe (I hope) and despite being left half paralysed from the bad people. My life is also pretty amazing now, I'm very grateful to be here ❤. But today as been a bad day mentally, a lot of crying and stuff. But I'm sure tommorow will be a better day ❤ thanks for your kindness and support ❤
I want to talk to you please
@Tinywhisper11
Hey I could also be here if you want.
"There's only so much you can take,
only so many times before you break".
Well thats how you annihilate
them and I appreciate that you dont hesitate.
You're a goat that you owned this 7cups's space
like you did higher the stakes.
Whatever it is, dont you hate yourself for Gods sake.
Its totally okay if you dont want to put that smile that looks great.
The world would have changed If it was possible for everyone to help each other. But unfortunately thats how the world has to work in its ways. So it is still a dream for everyone, not just you. Never compare yourself too much with others. If you watch people closely, you might see worse situations that you could ever imagine. If you do that you could easily cope up with your thoughts. Please dont blame yourself for nothing and there is nothing to be shame of. You could use internet for education and it doesnt have to be at school bc it might not be a big deal or fun like you think it is. You are not better than me, Im not better than you, No one is better than anyone. Everyone has their own problems and they all feel broken too. Even the richest people feel broken too xp. Thats how our brain works its not our fault. (If you are a believer) God created each and everyone differently with intelligence to test their loyalty in this temporary life. I believe everything starts after this life. Now, what you could do is explore that kind of stuff. Find and learn the truth. You have everything now and be grateful for that. So just relax. *Hugs and kisses*
@Tinywhisper11
Hey Lola 🌸
You have nothing to be ashamed of and are certainly not to blame. What happened has nothing to do with you and everything to do with the bad people.
We all love you here ❤️ .
You’re a trooper and I’m sure tomorrow will be a better day 🌅
You are doing the best you can do for now and that’s okay ❤️. We all have our setbacks, good days, bad days. Remember the bad times will pass and tomorrow is another day 🌻.
You got this 💪🏻.
Sending all my love and prayers to you Lola! ❤️ 🙏🏻 ❤️ 🙏🏻 ❤️ 🙏🏻
@Greentrees2325 thank you ❤ your always there to pick me up when I'm down ❤❤ hugs you tightly ❤ I love you
@Tinywhisper11 🌸
Hugs you tightly back 🫂 ❤️ Love you too.
I’ll Always be around here for you Lola, rooting for you like everyone else here ❤️❤️❤️.
Like your other friend said, (sorry I’m not sure who) you’re really one of a kind… most “hurt people, hurt people” but you defy that rule 🤍 which makes you extra special.
Remember this. God sees all and knows all. ❤️ He knows the pain you have suffered and what you are going through right now. ❤️ He has the almighty power, and I pray he takes away your pain and suffering 🙏🏻 ❤️. Trust in Him. ❤️ There is always Hope.
Your guardian angels are also with you ❤️.
I truly believe this. 🙏🏻 Everything will be okay ❤️. Hugs you tightly again 🫂.
Love you Lola 🌻
@Tinywhisper11
Tinyy, to say that life has been harsh is an understatement with what you had been through, but look at you my beautiful brave butterfly still being the amazing person that you are❤️ I feel lucky to come across with you in this lifetime and even blessed to be your friend. You are loved by so many Tiny because of who you are, there will be bad days like this one but remember we always got your back🤗❤️
@floatingdandelion my little baby floats ❤❤ I love you ❤thanks Angel, I'm trying my very best as always ❤❤ and omg! What happened to cute evil floofy cat. 😮😮 now he just looks plain evil 😂😂😂😂 awww! He's adorable, I may have to steal that kitty ❤
@Tinywhisper11
ikr?! so evil looking yet so adorable! I love you more tiny. Keep braving, beautiful🤗❤️
@Tinywhisper11
You help so much hun.
Your happy bubbly nature , your kindness compassion and empathy.
Your funny perkiness.
You can only do so much sweety.
Love you to the moon and vack
Gemmi
Sending you warm hugs💛💛
There are moments when we don't feel adequate, regardless of the love we're extending. Sometimes, we struggle to offer it to ourselves, even when it's not our fault that it's been snatched. I understand there are many dreams we harbor, but when they're unjustly taken from us, we feel shattered. We find ourselves searching for small joys when we had hoped for bigger aspirations. However, I want to assure you that these moments hold significance.
I read your beautiful responses to everyone here each day, and it's evident how much people love you. Many wish for a friend like you, pray for you, and cherish your presence. Your art is beautiful, and you are a masterpiece yourself. Art doesn't have to be perfect, it should evoke emotion, and you do just that. You make us feel seen and loved. You shine brightly. ✨
While it's true we cannot change your past, I wish we could do so together. However, we can strive to make this present moment better than the ones before. And we will. 💛🌻
There's a quote I love-
"You're in the world, and the world is in you. Everything connects." 🌸
Within you lies a world similar to the external one, with its own challenges. Yet, amidst its flaws, there exists goodness and beauty deserving of love, just as you want to offer love to the outer world. And I really hope you find yourself able to see it the way we do. I know there are days when it's extremely difficult.
But if we're able to only breathe today, let it be enough. ❤️
@Yougotmyback ❤❤❤ thankyou so much ❤❤ your the sweetest angel ❤ always looking out for me and everyone else ❤I love you ❤
You're an angel Lola. For me and many of us here and I love you moreeee💛💕