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@charmingOrange5817

I'm sorry you are struggling 💛

You are not alone here.

Why not drop into a sharing circle, it's a safe and non judgemental space, you'd be welcome 💙

@charmingOrange5817

Hello Charming, welcome to 7 Cups, we are here to listen (read), support you and help you share the burden from both near and far. You are welcome here anytime and ALWAYS supported.

I know too well, from personal experience, that sense of bottling up feelings and screaming silently into yourself.

I believe I have something from my own experience that may well help a little.

I undertake a form of "meditation", if you like. 
I simply sat, in a quiet room, that was comfortable in climate. I sat on a comfortable seat and I made a conscious effort to relax my body, my physical shell. When I had relaxed the physical I went into my mind, I imagined actually looking into my mind as though it were a storeroom (which, in essence, is what the brain is) I "accepted" that I had been labeled by the doctors and acknowledged that it was part of me now. I "walked" past it and went further in. I imagined my way back to a time before I was diagnosed, labeled, before I became the "now" me. I saw, in my mind, the me I had been and I watched the "past" me. I watched the events I had experienced and watched how I had reacted, dealt with and succeeded at things. I saw my "courage", my "strength", my "intelligence" at work, my "kindness", my "compassion" and my "sense of humour".

I saw what was STILL in me but buried.

It wasn't all said and done in one go. I had to keep doing it a number of times before it finally became clear but when it did the sense of empowerment and relief were overwhelming. I realised I could cope with anything.

I don't know if this will help you, it is my sincere hope that it will. Be kind to yourself, you are NOT alone.
Namaste,
Wolf.

(Listener - 7 Cups of Tea)