Why is life seeming easy suddenly? Mockingly..
After all the pain I suffered, and all the stuffs I coped with.. its almost as if things play out as if nothing ever happened. All those people now act as if they care.. (talking abt offline people). Things seeming normal. I'm kinda... almost feeling carefree.
I feel- is this the silence before the storm. Why do I soften out.. when things starts pretending to be normal.. after all the painful hurtful things.
And I hate it. I hate it.. when I soften out.. forgetting those moments. Its easier to stay non-feeling, hard hearted.. and just doing my duty.. (coz I don't need to love anyone).. But to survive.. I have to start being like a human. To smile.. to pretend.. to act like I love and care. And in the process of acting.. I start to care. I become soft.
All the times when I was being lonely.. I didn't get love from any side. And now when I want to be JUST LITERALLY LEFT ALONE, I don't get that chance. People start acting to care.
And... I know.. Its ups and downs and the seasons of life. I know that. But I do know that in my downs.. ik that there won't be ppl helping me (non 7cups ppl maybe).. not even God at times.. But in the ups.. they act as if they're there for you.
@SoulwithGoals
I understand exactly what you mean.
You push out their bad manners, acts and intentions, even though they didn't apologise or at times, weren't even sorry, because ultimately you just want to go about your day and to regain your peace of mind.
I'm sorry they don't see your worth and the effect their actions is having on you 💚
I don't expect them to see my worth and I don't need them to either. I just want to be left alone with the reality that they are temporary. But its difficult.. when time just makes things normal..when its not.
But thank you for replying. You always are the one who responds to every thread in 7Cups.
@SoulwithGoals
A pleasure 💚
I'm glad you know your own worth outside of them 😊
Update: It's okay now...
I'm back to the downs of life. Time to suffer. Thanks for all the replies and huge amount of response by everyone.
Have a nice day.
