breaking point....
lonlieness hits so hard....
i tried so hard to put on a show, or to make sure i seem like this confident, funny, happy, know it all, smiley, weird person, tried to please everyone else. and now, i sit here alone with no one to see me or hear me and as much as i can be around people, it feels like its just me. just me in the middle of this whirlwind wondering wheather if i will ever belong.. and the more i come to realise it, the more i pull myself further down this endless trap.
who even am i? why do i try so *** hard when i get nothing but pain and agony out of all of it?
i just want to go home, but there is no more place to call home. not even the walls of this building.
i want a family but there is no people to call my family. not even on the internet.
i want to be loved.... but its just me.
idk.... i just... can't take it all anymore. i've hit the breaking point.
bunny-
@amiableBunny4016
I felt this in my soul! I've been lonely my whole life. I've never felt like I fit in anywhere, even when I am around my family. I can't maintain friendships or relationships. It sucks and I don't know what to do.
Talk to us....we got ya! Just reach out and please please don't hold things in. We are all here for you.
Hi! I know you are going through a lot. If you ever need to talk with anyone, I'm always here.
@amiableBunny4016
Reading your words Bunny was like reading where I have been many times. I just want to give you a big big hug. Just know even though you feel lonely, this black sheep, eccentric, strange, loud, and broken but building myself up (me), is here for you. Message me here anytime if you need a distraction or listening ear. -Vi
amiableBunny4016 Hey there, I just wanna say that I've read what you've shared here. And I hear you. Very much. I too am feeling loneliness so much loneliness in my life right now. I too don't have close family to rely on or to feel supported by. It takes so much effort to make it look like I'm OK, when I'm really, really not. I can relate to the "whirlwind" you speak of. In that for me I feel like I'm in an immense hurricane right now, with no calm in sight. I too have hit breaking point. And I'm not sure if I can take it anymore. So from this, please know that I understand you and that your thoughts and emotions are valid. And YOU ARE NOT ALONE 🌝 I feel like I give so much to others and in life and rarely feel like I get much back. And the loneliness is ****! Peace and strength to you Bunny, Drift 💪
@amiableBunny4016 I can see that you're hurting right now and I can feel all those same feelings you're feeling. I hope that you know that you matter. I'm in those shoes right there with you! Not on your same journey cuz we all have our own but been down some of those same roads. Continue to give yourself grace and self-compassion. Hard times come but they also go. Proud of you!
I hope you find strength to turn things around, it's not so easy to be positive when things don't go the way you want them to or you get stuck in a stalemate position. Good things will come your way. Stay strong
@amiableBunny4016 Please stay safe, I relate more than you know. Good luck out there, I love you
