lost
Trying to figure out what’s wrong with me. Some days I'm ok. Some days I feel very lonely even though I am home with everyone. My kids can sometimes easily set me off if I have to talk to them a million times and then have to start yelling because they will not listen or settle down. Most of the time I don't want my husband touching me. I lost interest in sex years ago. I’m always talking about wanting to leave the house but when I get the opportunity, I don’t wanna leave. I never take the kids outside to play.
@skyraven02
It is a challenge for sure to look for answers sometimes we need to do things we do not want to force ourselves... Take the kids out leave when you can .... have you tried counseling either for yourself or as a couple?
many of us have been in your shoes thinking there has to be something else. kids that are not listening or being ignored sets us off we need to find another way to communicate. yelling is noise to most not effective. the physical and emotional connection with spouse is often intertwined. we say we do not know what it is sometimes we need to dig deeper to acknowledge what "it" is.
I forced myself to change even when many times i passed on opportunities to go out do things meet people. I talked myself out times i could go out or do things.... why i still can not tell you afraid of failure or success...
I forced myself to try things/ do things and found myself .. maybe you are not lost just unsure which way to turn left or right.