sometimes i feel like i want to end it, quit, because i'm not sure
no one believed in me, not even myself
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@TheGeminiInMe it's difficult for me because ever since i was little, they taught me to rely on others , saying something like "just ask your sister to do it for you" but now that i'm an adult, they blamed me, telling me that i have no life experience. everyday i'm afraid of doing wrong things
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I'm always reminded of this message in- Winnie the Pooh when someone tells me that they don't believe in themselves.
@trueconfidant123 wonderful quote, i love.. thanks for sharing, really need it at a time like this 🥹🧡
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Here's another quote I really love and that might help you to stay hopeful.
@trueconfidant123 thanks a lot for sharing this quote 🧡🧡 from which movie is this? is that rebecca ferguson?
@hopefulencounter I find the crisis resource list for you in case you need it.
https://www.7cups.com/crisis/
I worry for you. 😞
@TheGeminiInMe thank you, i cried for like 1 hour.. at first i didn't plan to cry this long, when i realized my eyes are already swollen😭
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There's no shame in crying. I sobbed myself for hours yesterday and woke up with puffy, irritable eyes today. What I'm glad about is that I'm past it and I'm proud of the fact that I didn't let my emotions bottle up. You did the same. So cheers on that!
@trueconfidant123 😭💖thank you! i agree this feeling shouldn't be bottled up, highfive!
they hate to see me cry but i cry anyway 
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You deserve to feel and process your emotions on your own terms!
@trueconfidant123 😭💖 thank you, i really appreciate your help💞
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@trueconfidant123 🧡🥹
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Bro it happens with everyone, I know it hurts but you'll make it through...Even I swear I cried in the morning because so much happened and i lost my friends, everyone, lost support of parents, and became so lonely...I just dont know what to do. I am helpless....I swear I can still see the mark on my wrist because of the way I kept the knife there but still chose to live than die as a loser....If I can do it, you can do it better...Relax, I've got you.
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@TheGeminiInMe thank you so much 😭😭
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@calmHouse5961 i will try to, it's not easy because everyday i feel useless and i dont know what to do or what my future will be
@hopefulencounter I don't think you're lazy or useless. It's hard to have motivation or even know what to do when we're dealing with things involving our mental health. It's tiring. Depression lies and tells us things like we're lazy or useless. Sometimes the people closest to us say these things too. Maybe they've never felt this way and just don't understand the pain their words can cause. How their words can add to what we're already struggling with. I'm so sorry that you're dealing with this and if there are people making you feel worse.
Try to find little spots of joy. Maybe a pet that makes you smile, a friend here that makes you feel seen and heard? Try to give yourself grace 💜
@mytwistedsoul thanks a lot for telling me this, i feel like i'm stuck and i cant handle my future sometimes. i relied a lot on others because thats what they taught me when i was a kid, like "you dont have to, just ask your sister to do that".
now that i'm older they blamed me when i can't this can't that, i feel scared to even try because what if i mess up. what if what i do is weird / doesnt match their expectation.
i always know theres something wrong with my mental health, i hardly can focus and sometimes overthink a lot.. then sad like right now, my family knows about this but "you're just overreacting, try to focus more. are you aware of your own living?"
@hopefulencounter It seems as though they set you up to not be able to do the things they want, the way they want them done. Maybe they didn't want to take the time to show you how to do these things when you were younger and now they'd rather blame you than admit that they're the ones that did this. I don't mean to point fingers of course but they were responsible for raising and teaching you.
@mytwistedsoul yes this, i agree with what you said 🥲. and for video, sometimes i search tutorial to do even basic things in life😅 so yeah.. sometimes i annoyed people around me because i didn't meet their expectations. i have bad confidence,, just trying to live and do my best :")
thank you for being here i appreciate you
@hopefulencounter I think if you're trying your best that's all anyone can ask of you. It's understandable that your confidence is low, it doesn't help that you're aware that people get annoyed with you.
@mytwistedsoul that's actually a really good idea, i'll search some 'how-to' videos! thank you for sharing your tips ✨
Get this. I believe in you. I feel your circumstances might be pursuading u to believe or think that ur useless and lazy but is that really you? Does your circumstances define you? You are more than this. Imagine if u got out of this situation, escaped it or overcame it. Will you still look back and say "I truly was useless and lazy even though I overcame it" The difference between you and a person who is not useless and lazy is just a long awkward silence. There's no difference, we all have the potential to be better even tho we might be in the worst of places. Jesus loves you bro.
@TheMagicBread thank you, i'll get through this unhappy feelings. i feel better today, thanks to you and all people who comforted me here. thank you for giving me advice 🧡
@hopefulencounter. feel free to reach out whenever you need support you arent alone in this
@unlimitedsupport thank you 🧡, i really appreciate your care :")
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I’m sorry you are going through a rough time. Please know that you are seen and you matter. You have innate skills and talents that enrich others in a unique specific way that no one else can exactly like you. Try to take one day at a time, one step at a time, one breath at a time if you need to. Remember you matter and have a beautiful purpose.
@Goldendoodlegirl79 thank you 🧡🧡🤗
Nah mate nobody is useless, and you might be burnt out rather than lazy
@SavedSinner i think so too, i feel tired to do anything like always sleepy :")
That sounds like sleep issues possibly, and/or burnout
