to all my friends..

to all my friends..

i'm sorry i haven't been present in your life lately. i don't take interest. sometimes i forget birthdays. sometimes i can be much. i forget people exist. i get attached, or i don't quite fit onto your rocket, but when i fall off i promise its for the best. at times i'm not on board. and honestly... i haven't been here much. i haven't been myself. i've been absent from my own life. the gap kept getting bigger and bigger and bigger. I started to see people for their flaws. I didn't want to inherit evil. Neither did I want to bother you with my hurt. I'm stuck between memories and anger and flooded with sadness. i got rid of some of my threads. i got rid of the girl i saw in the mirror for a while. I'm stuck between loving people and letting go. Sometimes you have to let go to love someone because the words that come out of your mouth are not the ones intended. i wait all year to come around, but the person your looking for hasn't come around yet. i pushed all my kindness and goodness and shoved it forcefully so that no one would see my darkness. i'm sorry. 

bunny.