I'm stuck and I don't know what to do.

Hello, my name is Joe and I am 28 years old. I have social anxiety, depression, and OCD. I have no job, friends, money, car, or any kind of close relationships. I really want things to change in my life, but I don't know what to do to change everything.

I have been trying to get a job for about the last 6-8 years. At first I was able to go to 3-4 job interviews, but I didn't do so well during them. Ever since then I have not been able to get any interviews. Sometimes I feel like applying for jobs is a waste of my time because I never even get any kind of responses from employers. The only time I do get responses are when the employers send me an e-mail telling me that I am not being considered for whatever job. That just causes me to get stressed out and depressed, and it makes me not want to even try anymore. I have mostly been applying to entry level jobs and I tried to get work from an employment agency. My mom even tried getting me a job at the place she works, but they don't want to hire me either.

I don't know what else to do. I really am desperate for things to change. I live with my mom and she takes care of me. I am completely dependant on her. She is getting older now (she's about 68), and she has had numerous physical problems in the past. She has been to the doctor a number of times because of heart problems. She also has feet pain after coming home from work. Every single day I am thinking that she could die. It is constantly on my mind. If she was to die I have no idea what I would do.

I really want to change things in my life, but everything I do seems to have no positive impact. My social problems make it hard for me to even do anything; I very rarely ever leave my house. I would like to also get some kind of therapy, but I can't afford it. I also don't have any kind of healthcare. I have tried getting it before, but I keep getting denied for some reason. People in my family know that I am quiet, but they act like it's not a big deal. When I tell them I have no job, they just act like its easy to get a job. I wish some of them would help me more, but they don't seem to understand the severity of my problems. I barely ever see most of the people in my family; the only time I see them is for birthday parties or holidays.

There have been times in the past when I have considered committing suicide. I have never really attempted it, and the thoughts of doing it eventually go away. I almost feel like that will be my only option in the future if things don't change. I don't know what else I could possibly do to change things. It sucks that I want to change things, but I am just unable to do anything. No employers will give me a chance. Nobody I know will offer to help me even though I obviously need help. I don't know what else to do. I am just so scared and hopeless right now. I know if I feel this way for a few days that I will start to have suicidal thoughts again.