Not ready
As fast as time is going end of aguest before I know it. I am not looking forward to that in eay. That’s when I face Reality and after math of the big mistake I made back in may. Looking forward to getting that part of my life back but it’s hard since I know I hurt people . Thoughts of what all the bad things could off happened . I wish I could think positive about this,
I'm sorry that you're struggling. Sends a hug if that is okay.
What helps me is to write/type my thoughts in a diary, releasing emotions is helpful.
Take one day at a time, and keep hope alive, your future self will be thankful.
The opposite of negativity is actually warmth/love. I don't know what you did but I can tell you care about the people involved. Spend time sending them love from your heart, even if you can't contact them. This will greatly improve how you feel and build your confidence for how you will handle the situation in August. You are a good person just for thinking about all this.
