How are your medical issues affecting your mental health?

I have a very rare autoimmune disease and I failed to respond to any treatments. I wish I could be "normal" again. People don't really appreciate their health until they start to lose it.

My medical difficulties and disabilities very rare except for one embarrassing disability and that disability not cover the medication to cure it yet and so I'm slowly waiting for help from another place. So yes it affects me mentally and it challenges me because I need a person in my life did I can trust and if you can't understand how hard it is then that is probably normal. or at least I think it is because I wish I could be heard and knew that people could know what I was saying that I always have to keep my guard up since before I let my guard down and trusted a person to understand my illness and I don't look that I am very sick sometimes. This was a few years back and now my feet swell up more but then you can hardly tell and I was wearing a machine which needed medication and I could deduct stuck out of town without the dependable so-called I thought I ride. Disgust me a hospital stay after all trusted someone that didn't really understand and the doctor told me not to trust anyone because they will not understand it unless they have it yourself in few and far between people will get that without that illness so next time be responsible. So whenever you cannot work because of a disability it means that you have to accept things except for just the disability like something is where to live when you don't have very much income and pets that you had for years that you can't just take anywhere for a roommate. Also disability has left me with an anxiety disorder so this is definitely a mental challenge when they take away my medication I think I might go crazy and I think they might put me back on it. For sure I would not have this anxiety are as much of it and at least I can say this honestly I have calm down a lot more since I've had to go through this but it took a decade. I think people that have a disability should seek therapy.