I give up. I can't take anymore....

@Awner81

Hi there,

I'm so sorry to hear you feel so worthless and depressed with your life how it is now and you feel that you're not validated by the women you meet. It sounds like you've been meeting people that are very critical and verbally abusive. There is always hope even if you feel like your multiple diagnosis put you down too. You are not your diagnosis, you are a person with feelings. I'd like you to think of 3 positive things a day that you like about you and to try be kind on yourself.

You've mentioned that your weight makes you unhappy, do you have a medical condition making you overweight or is it perhaps diet? Not enough water, sleep? Stress? Emotional eating? We need to see what is causing this to make it better for you hopefully. Have you seen a doctor for it?

Please don't believe the unkind things people have said. I'm sure one day you'll meet a woman unlike these that will change everything for you too.

Lisa

@Awner81

i suffer from ptsd, severe social anxiety, severe chronic depression, ocd, add, suicidal tendencies. severe abandonment issues. I am 450 to 480 lbs usa measurements obese and can't lose weight no matter how healthy i eat and how much i work out.

I have spent 8 years in the dating scene trying to find a woman to date and settle down with. Past 8 years I have been rejected around 4000 times and told I am ugly, disgusting, worthless, useless, told I have nothing to offer a woman or give a woman, mocked at laughed at, told I don't deserve love or a relationship, told I needed to end my life for being so fat and lazy.

Past 8 years I have been lead on by 22 women who pretended to love and want me and lead me on for 3 months or more sweet talking me telling me they love me and making plans for us then would fake their death or call me while having sex with someone or would disappear on me to never be heard from again.

I spent the past ten years trying to get my GED and go to college, but I have found out I have a learning disability that makes it hard for me to learn sometimes nearly impossible depending on how hard or difficult what I am studying is. Sometimes I just can't understand things and no matter how much it is explained or how many times it is explained in different ways I won't understand it or learn it.

I can't do normal jobs like desk jobs and such because of my issues or because I have a hard time understanding the stuff they try to teach me, not really good with people either and having severe social anxiety I can't even sit in a dr office waiting room without having severe panic attacks.

I'm sorry that so many women have taken advantage of your situation. That must cause it it to be incredibly difficult to trust others, which is entirely understandable. What they have done is unacceptable and you didn't desreve that, to say the least. I hope that talking to Listeners on here will help you make steps towards reaching out to other people in your life.

I was wondering if you have happened to be treated for hypothyroidism? You have mentioned that your thyroid was abnormal and hypothyroidism can contribute to weight gain, depression, lethargy, among many other things.

Also, being treated for ADD/ADHD can help substantially for you GED and work. I've found it incredibly difficult to function without my ADHD medication in regards to working as well as when I took the test for my GED, so I thought that I would ask.

It breaks my hear to hear everything that you're struggling with, especially PTSD.. It's a very challenging disorder to confront, though it isn't impossible.

I honestly could write lenghty paragraphs about every part of your post, though I'm not sure if that would be benficial. Just know that you are never alone in your struggles and that there are many Listeners here that you can reach out to if you if you feel comfortable to do so.