I want to stay depressed...?
Okay, so I'm a 14 year old from India, and I suffer from depression and addiction. I have been addicted to prescription drugs for the past two years, and I self harm as well. I joined 7 cups a few days ago, so I'm still fairly new :) . Lately, I've discovered that I don't want to become happy or move away from depression. It's scaring me, and I just wanted to know whether anybody has ever felt the same before, and if anybody has any answers as to why it happens. That's it. Bye!
I feel this way constantly. Like the depression is a security blanket. Once you have been a certain way for so long, you don't want to change because you have gotten used to the sadness. I am working on this. It will take some time. But you need to find that motivation to get better. Or else you never will. Best of luck to you. Stay strong beautiful
I know the feeling you are talking about, I have been there as well. You become comfortable in your normal pattern, and don't want to change. At least for me, the reason that I wanted depression to stay in my life was because it was easier. I didn't have to deal with my problems, I just continued to numb myself, and the sadness I felt became normal and sometimes felt good. But, you will feel so much better when you deal with the roots of your problems and talk about it! It might take hard work, but it is worth it. Obviously it didn't all go away, I still feel sad, but not as much as before. I felt like weight was being lifted off me. Good luck!
