I wonder....

I wonder if I should go off my medication and let nature take it's route, so to say.

To see which way my path would take me.

I feel like I'm a tightrope dancer.

Dancer between semi-sanity and completely losing every thread of what keeps my head together still.

And it is driving me C R A Z Y. (No pun intended.) It feels like these meds are keeping me together, but I feel like that is wrong in a way. That the truth is here, but it's unreachable because I'm medicated. That I don't know who I really am for as long as I am still eating these pills.

Dammit. I wonder if my doctor would be okay with me going off them for a while. I doubt that.