idk what to do
im having a depressive episode and i thought it was over but its not i hate the way it makes me feel im 18 and my only friends are online cause they moved away, im not in school i have my GED but im not taking any college classes. I dont have my license so im trapped in the house. Ive been to the psych ward so many times over the past year and im so done with it. i hate feeling like this i just want it to go away. i get sh urges but i know how to control them i've been clean for 200+ days. i also have thoughts of death but wouldnt act on them.
@libby07
In your post your write of things you cannot do. The days clean and fighting SH and destructive thoughts is a win an accomplishment congratulations
No license may inhibit transportation or where you can go but is there any other transportation like bus or something? Is there anything with in walking distance from your house? If you are not in school have you tried a job? again maybe limited by transportation but not impossible what is your hold up in working to wards getting your driver's license
In life many friend or such we may lose touch with i think of they good thing that being able to stay in touch with people online in past people did not have that option.
i see lots of opportunity while it seems you see little of none. sometimes life is a matter of perspective. i have been in your situation and found the obstacles i made out to be huge were not as hard as i made them seem.
@libby07 can I check in with you today and see how you have been keeping? 🥰
