I was not supposed to be here
(TW- Abortion, Depression)
Hello. I’ll be sharing about something I found out after 18 years of my life.
I was not supposed to be here in this world. There was another child before me that my parents aborted. Why did they abort the child? If the child was here today, they’ll have a way brighter future than me. I feel horrible. That child’s life was never able to proceed just for me to be an absolute mess since 13. I hate everything about me. If only the child was alive. I wouldn’t have to live this disgusting, horrid thing I call life. It hurts me even more knowing that I was an accidental birth. That’s why my family treated me the way they did. I was mocked for everything I do. I am never good enough. I just wish time will go back and bring back that child so that I would’ve never been born. I shrugged it off when my family told me, but in reality, I felt heartbroken inside. Anyways, sorry for the rant.
@JanusPi 😞 gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤squeezes you tightly ❤ you know life doesn't always seen good or fair. But you were born, you are here, and you have the power to change your life now. When you look around you see mysery, darkness and pain. But when I look around I see magic and beauty and miracles everywhere. It's all about perspective. I understand it's hard though. I'm sorry you've gone through all this😟hugs you ❤
@Tinywhisper11
I’ve tried for way too long now. Thank you.💕
@JanusPi yeah I understand 😥 I'm sorry sweetie ❤all I can offer is my hugs ❤ squeezes you tightly ❤
@Tinywhisper11
Thanks.💕
@JanusPi I'm sorry sweetie I wish I was more help
@Tinywhisper11
Don’t worry about it. You’ve helped me so much already by giving me so much love in every posts.💕
@JanusPi
some broken pieces which I can relate with
Hi. First don't be sorry for your rant! It's a place to express your emotions freely and rant.
Second I relate to how you feel. My life is not like yours but the feelings are still the same😭
Me too I have depression and I always feel like I am never good enough because my parents never praise me and are just emotionally absent. I feel like I am a burden to them! I also sometimes wish that I have never been born but hey, I don't know you, but you seem like an amazing human being to me. I enjoyed all your poetry posts. You find a beautiful way to express pain through poems.
I know it hurts to be in that environment but you are you and they are only your parents. You have to decide your fate not them!
I really hope it will get better for you and I wish you all the best.
I don't know if my reply was helpful but I wanted to support you the best way I can. I just know this pain and don't want anyone else to go through the same thing💔
I'm sending you big hugggs ❤️❤️❤️
@23helicopters
Thank you.💕
