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User Profile: GlenM
GlenM March 23rd, 2015

Congratulations! You made it to the next level on your growth path. Share with us the #1 thing you learned on this leg of your journey!

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User Profile: dapperCup8334
dapperCup8334 January 8th, 2017

Spending precious moments with my daughter

User Profile: Tagtraeumerin8
Tagtraeumerin8 January 8th, 2017

I always have people who'll help me.

User Profile: AlphaACD
AlphaACD January 8th, 2017

Can your hear it? The scream that goes on forever. So loud yet, silent for those who refuse to hear. A sound so mournful, so painful. A wail so full of hopelessness and misery, She's never heard. Each time she opens her mouth, her voice is full of fear. Begging for forgiveness of deeds long since forgotten. There is none. Maybe, just maybe a scream will be heard. What comes back is silence. A silence so dark and bleak, even the demons weep.

User Profile: lovingPlum8085
lovingPlum8085 January 8th, 2017

@AlphaACD that's sad and beautiful

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User Profile: dapperCup8334
dapperCup8334 January 8th, 2017

I can I will end of story

User Profile: AlphaACD
AlphaACD January 8th, 2017

She is the joyful death row prison guard. The one who whistles happily, knowing your days are soon ending.

A high ranking official for the next great shuttle launch, except there is no launch. The program has become obsolete. Like me.
When I needed her most, when I came to her At my worst. There was no comfort, no empathy, no support, only questions.
Questions I couldn't answer because of the pain. Questions I couldn't answer because of the shame. Questions I wasn't ready or capable of answering.
If I had the answers, they weren't good enough.
She thrives on details. The kind that draws blood.
She feeds on the pain and details like some horrid emotional blood sucking tick. Burrowing deeper, never letting go. Getting ever fatter from the blood that flows
User Profile: AlphaACD
AlphaACD January 8th, 2017

Like a surgeon de-gloving a face. Who is strong enough to pull back the flesh. To expose more than just the tangible, the muscle and tissue.

There are emotions, hopes and dreams even pain. They are not visible to the naked eye yet, they exist. You only need to reach deep enough to know that they are there and, just as real as a broken bone or cut.
User Profile: AlphaACD
AlphaACD January 8th, 2017

I see myself as an old abandoned home.

Blank, glassless windows stare back with black lifeless eyes.
Each room holds stories to painful to tell.
Bolted, locked only I hold the key but, like me, the locks and keys grow old and brittle with age.
A door bursts open.
Flooding the house with screaming and wailing that cannot be quieted, no matter how hard I try.
Horrid memories, like freakish paintings come to life.
I am helpless to stop.
So many rooms to look after, so many doors to keep locked.
Another bursts open.
I am helpless to stop.
User Profile: AlphaACD
AlphaACD January 8th, 2017

After my father died, I looked at the places I've lived differently.

The facade was perfect. Grass mowed with clean lines. Widows so clean, they sparkled.
The inside...the inside was a different story, to long to tell.
I'm much older now.
The outside you see and the inside you don't, have merged into one.
User Profile: AlphaACD
AlphaACD January 8th, 2017

She is the joyful death row prison guard. The one who whistles happily, knowing your days are soon ending.

A high ranking official for the next great shuttle launch, except there is no launch. The program has become obsolete. Like me.
When I needed her most, when I came to her At my worst. There was no comfort, no empathy, no support, only questions.
Questions I couldn't answer because of the pain. Questions I couldn't answer because of the shame. Questions I wasn't ready or capable of answering.
If I had the answers, they weren't good enough.
She thrives on details. The kind that draws blood.
She feeds on the pain and details like some horrid emotional blood sucking tick. Burrowing deeper, never letting go. Getting ever fatter from the blood that flows
User Profile: AlcesAlces
AlcesAlces January 8th, 2017

I just wanted to share a poem with you which I've written recently, and which expresses the most important change I've recently gone through, not least thanks to you.

Happiness

You are the sun in the sky,

lightening up my life.

You are the earth I walk,

and through your meadows, I strife;

You are the tear I shed,

you are the smile in my face.

Youre the atonement I seek,

showing your infinite grace;

You are the missing piece,

you make the partial whole.

You are the voice in my mind

reading my thoughts to my soul.

I had forgotten you.

Now, by your wisdom, I see:

You are the point of my life --

if only I want you to be.