2023, a year in review!

2023 was a crazy year. It was a tough year, but I'm proud of myself! I figured id sum the entire year up by each month. Highlighting the highs and the lows. 

Tw sa, sh, abuse, chronic pain,ed,cancer, surgery

January : I decided to quit band. I reached a new low with my ed. Things were not going well, I don't really remember January. 

February : I started medication and therapy. I did girlscout cookie booths, my grandfather died and it was really traumatic for me, how it all went down. Mr. Ew took advantage of my weakness and began doing adult things, even though he was 18.

March: I turned 15! I went to a concert, celebrated jeffys 7th bday. My friend came over and we made tye dye! She had just turned 17! Had some really hard days but I made through it. My therapist called cps on my abusive parents but me and my sister didn't get removed from home, so all was good. Evil man screamed at me and told me it was my fault and evil stuff 😔 I didn't go back to therapy. i also created my l account

April: april was april except I went to an aquarium for girlscouts! It was awesome! i loveeeeee stingrays! At the end of April I went on vacation and we went back to the aquarium and I had loads of fun! i got a signed copy of a book by rick riordan! My brother was there and he made me scared and stressed but it was still an awesome trip! 

May: I started talking to my friend I ghosted again, a positive choice. May was kind of a blur, but I did gain more weight.

June: my grandma had to have emergency brain surgery. i missed summer camp and was in new jersey for a month. It took a toll on me, I lost more weight, reaching a low of 87 lbs. Mr ew left for the military and part of me was relieved but sad. Celebrated one year on 7cups,

July: went to girl scout camp! Had a blast teaching! Dyed my hair bright blue, the color for sexual abuse survivor, this was the month I realized mr ew was a bad man. Reached 1 month sober. Started new meds and began the hard journey of gaining more weight. I went to a pride parade and had an amazing time! 

August : I went back to band! I went to a dance! i started seeing my friends again. I relapsed, but knew it was okay. i started looking for a job, continuing to make good decisions progress. Started sophomore year and cut off a toxic friend

September: my friend who said hed come back in august didn't. i realized he was gone, at least for me. Mr ew texted me and we talked back and forth for a bit and I began to fall back into that pattern. I told him I was done for a bit and needed to focus on *me*, I didn't gain any weigh this month and had a bullemic period. I dropped my sleep meds and began having issues with my blood sugar.

October: met my boyfriend, at the next dance. Gosh do I love him. We went on a date! It was amazing! He makes me feel safe and loved! I Got to take my sister trick or treating by myself! Relapsed. But gained more weight! 

November: I got a band solo, and began prepping for a hard audition! i reconnected with the toxic friend before severing the relationship completely. I deserve better. My band concert went awesome and I got to meet my bfs friends! Found out I most likely need surgery snd I need a fancy test. Messaged mr ew but haven't done that since.

December: I reached my weight goal! Went to ohio to see my friend! My sister turned 14! I got news I most likely will definitely need the surgery mentioned in November. In a lot of pain but thriving. Had another dance! Got to kiss my bf 🥺

this year was crazy! Stressful! Too much! Alot! Was it good? I don't know. Am I proud? Heck yes.  Im almost 2 months clean! 

Tagging so many friends: @fluffysheep8 @tinywhisper11 @lovemymoonflowers @amiablebunny4016 @nebulacreation @darkerplaces @sneakysnakeboi @iamspoons @echothedragon @birdking449 @alexander0712 @olivetree1728 @jemmyxoxo @Kylersartpace @teenmorgan16