I did a thing with food

I am proud of myself because I just had a meal, and before having the meal I told myself that I'm actually going to enjoy it. I'm not going to rush it, I'm not going to get it over with because it's pointless and I want to go back to my room, and I'm not going to choose to eat something because I can finish it quickly or because it doesn't take a long time to prepare.

So I sat down and enjoyed the first proper meal that I've had in a long time. I took my time with every bite, I made sure that I was able to smell the food, and I focused on enjoying every bite of my plate. I even had dessert because I wanted to congratulate myself, and not because I was going through a depressive episode and decided to binge-eat.

This was the first meal in a very long time that I could appreciate, and it lifted my mood by a considerable amount.

Yay me :)