7 months without my grandad
7 months ago, on the 10th april 2025, i lost my grandad, the person closet and most dearest to me. 2 weeks prior to that we found out he had cancer in the spine and there was nothing nobody could do, we was then told he had a month-2 weeks left to live. i wish i was prepared, but nothing can prepare you for that. i remember getting a call and being brought to my grandads house, once getting there i was told he was gone, they then took me to see him. i cannot get the image of him lifeless out of my head to this day, everytime i close my eyes, it is there. i still feel lost, upset and cry everyday. yesterday was his birthday and everything came back to me and hit me 10 times harder. everybody tells me that it will get better and the grief will pass, but it isn’t and i cannot cope with it anymore this feeling is awful and nobody understands me, not even my own family. people tell me “it’s been 7 months get over it” but i can’t, i never will i was so close to him and i wish i got to spend more time with him before he passed. i am only 17 and feel like this is destroying my whole life and this image of him will haunt me forever.
@energeticBike7078
You don't ever get over this.
Love doesn't fade.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
There's no timeline, it never leaves us, it just dulls with time and we learn to live around it.
Your grandad was special, he can't be replaced 💖
thank you for making me feel heard
@energeticBike7078
A pleasure 💜
@energeticBike7078
so sorry for your lost.
I know how hard it can be to loose a grandparent that you are very close to.
i was like that with my grandmother and even so years later it still hard for me. I can totally relate to what u are going though,
thank you, i am sorry for your loss too
@energeticBike7078
I am so deeply sorry for the sudden loss of your grandad- and the shock of that diagnosis coming so quickly.
It is completely understandable why that image of him is stuck in your mind and returns every time you close your eyes. That is a lasting impact of a shocking loss, and it’s okay that you are still grappling with it. Losing someone so dear is devastating at any age, and at 17, it can truly feel like it's destroying your whole life.
I can understand how hurt you might feel when people pressure you to get over it. Please know that seven months is not a long time in the world of grief, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with you for still feeling lost, upset, and crying every day. Grief doesn't have an expiration date, and anyone who tells you otherwise simply doesn't understand the depth of your bond with him.
You mentioned you were so close to him, and I can relate to the depth of that bond. I lost my own grandfather around that same time this year, and he was one of my best friends, too, so I understand how much that kind of relationship shapes you.
If you ever feel like, please feel free to reach out to the listeners or join chat groups where you'll find other members who would be glad to talk to you too! Take care!