Grief has made me antisocial
At first it was okay to just put on a brave face and pretend to be normal. It has become so exhausting that I now avoid any optional socializing, specially the friends who know about my loss. They don't understand that I'm still grieving. They give me such odd looks whenever I mention anything that I've stopped sharing. At this point I feel so stupid for even sharing the times I've shown my vulnerable side to them. I can't help but feel hurt and resentment towards them. But I also understand that life moves on and only those who have lost people truly understand these feelings so I shouldn't hold it against my friends. Now I feel like it's better when I'm alone. Yes, it's not healthy to self-isolate but at least I can be at peace. Can anyone relate?
@alee3105 I hear you ❤ yes it's true there are few that understand thing's they haven't been through, or illnesses they don't have. But it's ok cause this is your safe place, you don't have to wear a mask here. You are free to talk about your feelings and emotions here cause we understand and we care ❤ grieving is different for everyone, and it's so hard. Please feel free to reach out to a listener, or just talk to us here ❤ gives you a giant festive tiny hug ❤ always here for you sweetie ❤❤
I can absolutely relate to you right now @alee3105. I lost my mom in July and have been struggling with grief since. With the holidays literally right around the corner all I want to do is stay in bed and pretend the world doesn't exist. I too try to put on a brave face and "be ok" when I'm around friends or family but it does get so very exhausting.
I hope you can find some peace and comfort during this trying time.
@alee3105
I understand and I hear your hurt and resentment. Grief comes in all forms and there is no rhyme or reason to how it shows up. Everything that you feel is normal and there's no right (or wrong) way to grieve. I'm sorry to hear that your friends are not supportive. You said one thing that really sticks out to me.... unless you have experienced it, you can't understand. You are amongst friends here and we do understand, even if your loss may look a little different than ours. Stay strong and know that you don't have to face your grief alone.
Always,
Kristynsmama