I can not believe it been 3 years in November seen loss my dad
I can not believe it's been 3 years seen my dad been gone he died on November 13 2023 from massive heart attack sound like dream to me been hard for me not have dad anymore I am jealous of people who have there dad in there life he miss so many milestone in my life and my family life I try focus on myself and mental health I wish took care of his self I mad at him for left us behind he did not know grief we have deal with for rest are life's and pain in are hearts for him he was amazed dad and I alway be dad little girl I wish could told so many life and wish could told him I love him and I miss him so much the pain and trauma of his death live with me forever I have ptsd from these experiences in my life see him dead in hospital bed tell him goodbye see him in that casket so cold and hand so hard see eyes closed visit him cetemery has been so hard on me going to my parents house he not there anymore hurts so much and all memories and photos see of my dad hurts alot I miss you pops and I love you pops we meet again one day I hope doing good in heaven with dad I hope smile down on your family
Hey @countrygirl9988, thank you so much for sharing this. I can hear how heavy this grief has been for you, and I'm sorry you are going through something so painful.
Losing a parent is life-changing and the way you describe everything, it makes complete sense that it still feels unreal, even after three years. Grief doesn't have a timeline and anniversaries can bring everything right back up.
I can hear by your post just how many mixed emotions you are carrying (the sadness, anger, the jealousy and longing). These are all totally valid. When someone we love is suddenly gone, especially in such a traumatic way, it leaves a mark that doesn't just fade. The memories you shared, seeing him in the hospital, saying goodbye, the funeral and visiting him in the cemetery, are incredibly hard moments and it makes sense that they stay with you.
I lost my mum last October, and I definitely relate to that 'dream-like' feeling you mentioned. Sometimes it still doesn't feel real, and I also get that jealousy when I see people with their parents. It's such as conflicting feeling, being happy for them but hurting for yourself at the same time. So much of what you wrote really resonated with me.
Your message to your dad is so full of love. It's clear how much he meant to you, and how deeply you miss him. You're not alone in this, and please do share as much as you need and want to here.
If you'd like to, I'd love to hear more about who your dad was as a person and your favourite memory together💜
@emsworld thanks for kind words my dad is hardworking funny kind thoughtful and understanding loving my dad had heart of gold he care about everyone in his life my memories with him going to ice cream as kid go ride with him take me to football games and going fires with him he was fire fighter or just talk to him For hours so many memories with him i love my dad so much and i miss him Everyday so his legacy and his memories live on throught me and my family forever
@countrygirl9988 Of course💜 Your dad sounds like such a wonderful person. The way you describe him as being hardworking, funny, thoughtful, kind and loving really shows how much of a big presence he had in your life. A heart of gold is such a beautiful way to remember him, and it's clear how deeply he cared for you and everyone around him.
Those memories are so full of love, I'm sure he bought a lot of joy into your life and it makes complete sense that you miss him every single day.
I can hear how proud you are to carry his legacy and memories forward. The love you have for him comes through so strongly in everything you write, and it’s clear he meant the world to you. Grief like this is so hard, especially when the memories are so vivid and meaningful, but you’re keeping him close in such a beautiful way.
If you'd like to share more about him, or any other memories that mean a lot to you, we're here to listen 💜
@emsworld thanks for kind words my dad was my everything it just me my mom my dad my brother now only three left in original family now I have my niece and my nephew in my life that will always know there grandpa that were so little went he left these earth my dad being so proud of his little family my man know my dad for 13 years he talk about him all the time are family miss are heart and pieces of puzzle with are dad in are life I look like him and act just like my dad his legacy live on throught me and my brother and his children are dad live on throught memories we have of him I have photos of him I think about him all time I miss call him to talk or need something he there I just miss see his smile and deep south voice I miss his so much I love my dad so much