In my feelings 💜

Just need to vent—- let it all hang out. No need to respond  💜💜💜

TW - drug use

This is a very tough month for me. I lost my sister in Aug 6th 2019. I don’t like talking about how she passed away. I don’t think it was truly her and who she was as a person. I know she struggled with mental health. I know there were things that lead her down her path. I think it some ways, shape, form I’m creating my own stigmas. I again am trying to protect her. 

As these days roll around, the funeral home and newspaper are ever so kind to remind me with emails that I lost her. And now we are upon overdose awareness week. 

Next week is her birthday. 

There were other things she did growing up and even as an adult. People that made her feel like she wasn’t good enough. She was my little escape artist. Always trying to break free and she did. 

I’m still angry. I’m still sad. I still miss her. 

Sometimes I can’t put it into words…. I just wish she never picked back up because I saw so much strength in her and I wish the guy she was with had some more sense in his head. 

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